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Friday, July 05, 2013

Man, I want to buy an island and put a dome over it. I would invite all my loved ones and positive people I know, and we would live in a world free of all the bs. The negativity. The drama llamas. ;) It would be a community of people working together and supporting each other.

The last few days have been spent dealing with drama that I got roped into. Long story short, (which is all I am going to say because I REFUSE to let their negativity poison me a moment longer...) I apparently had friends...that were not true friends. HAD. I am letting go of it, and moving on with my life, continuing the course to a healthy, happy, active me.

Good news is that in spite of the last couple days, my eating has been pretty darn good. If anything it was on the low side. We won't know for sure what that means weight wise until Monday. I have kept to my strict "No Weigh Until Weigh In" pledge. It's been really nice not to have to worry about that. I was an obsessive weigher forever...lol, pretty much until this week, and not weighing at all has really took away the anxiety and pressure. I would weigh every time I went to the bathroom and be upset when the numbers would go up. It's gonna go up when you drink 200 oz of water a day! I knew this too! Still bothered me. Silly girl. Think I am going to keep this up a bit and see how it goes. Maybe only weigh once or twice a week. Not weighing before my WW Weigh In is kinda crazy, because I like to have an idea of where I am at least! I actually am feeling pretty good about this week.

I kept up my walking too. Instead of letting everything get to me I walked. I didn't turn to food. I turned to exercise. Huh??!!!?? :D I took out all of my stress on walking. I kick that walks ASS. I am going to refer to it as angry walking, I beat all my times, it was crazy, lol. I may not be able to control every aspect of my life, but I CAN control keeping to my plan, and for the FIRST time in my life I did. Very PROUD.

OHHHH!! AND GET THIS!!

I approached a guy who owns a gym here. He is semi-just starting out, and I sent him an email explaining what changes I have made and all about how committed I am to seeing this through. I am saving to buy a house, so I REALLY can't justify a gym membership right now. I suggested that he take me on as a personal project, and in exchange I will give him a testimonial, and before and after pictures. And I go meet him tomorrow. He wanted me to come tonight, but I have a homework deadline, and there is just NO way I could.

This is a Crossfit(?) type program. Not a gym with treadmills and TV's. This is a marine who I offered to let "bootcamp" me and I told him that I would do anything he says. I hope I don't die, lmao. This is clearly the craziest thing I have ever done! Really really hoping I don't end up like one of those weight loss show contestants throwing up half way through first workout. Can't wait!! I am SOOO excit-ified!!! (New word...but it is PERFECT!!) Equal parts excited and TERRIFIED!!

I will post tomorrow after I get home from the meeting!
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  • v BRADMILL2922
    My neighbor is a marine and he does crossfit...BE READY! That crossfit is NO JOKE! Hopefully you enjoy it. That sucks about the friends thing and it is a shame when things like that happen with people. But other than that, it is good to see that you are doing well! Hope you had a good weigh-in yesterday! And 200 oz of water? Dang, that's a lot of water!
    1057 days ago
  • v BROOKE008
    I am SO EXCITED to see you've been doing well! Life can really throw some curveballs, and its so easy to let those drama llamas chew you up and spit you out. Good for you for moving on, you deserve to be happy and stay positive!

    BOOTCAMP! With a MARINE! I have a tough Sparkfriend haha. I can't wait to hear about your meeting with him, I'm sure it will be yet another amazing experience - and a GREAT challenge for yourself!

    If I don't talk to you beforehand, good luck at your WW weigh in tomorrow! Proud of you!

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    1059 days ago
  • v LORI2562
    Excit-ified!! LOVES IT!!

    Very exciting news about your meeting! I am not familiar with crossfit - sounds interesting.

    Looking fwd to hearing how things went.
    1060 days ago
  • v LILLITH32
    Wow, the new workouts sounds like such a great chance for both you and the gym owner! Hope you get amazing results!
    1060 days ago
  • v RISINGBLUESTAR
    That island sounds appealing lol. It's hard to make good friends sometimes but letting go of the bad ones is definitely a step in the right direction. :)

    Great job with all the changes you are making! emoticon emoticon emoticon

    It's good to challenge yourself sometimes. Good luck with everything! emoticon emoticon
    1060 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/6/2013 4:01:11 AM
  • v LUANN7
    like God forgives our sins and puts them in the past-forgive your ex friends and put them in your past then you don't have to think about it anymore. That's so cool about your meeting I sure hope it works out and oh boy what a motivator!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Lu Ann
    1060 days ago
  • v MOTHEPRO
    Good luck with the new workout!
    1061 days ago
  • v SABLENESS
    Good luck with the gym. That was a great idea! emoticon
    1061 days ago
  • v KELLIEBEAN
    I like your new word!!! I can't wait to hear how that goes.

    Use those drama lamas to your advantage....constant reminders of the person you do not want to be.

    That's a great rule, no weigh till weigh-in. You are doing so great!!

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    1061 days ago
  • v JOHGLO2011
    Can't wait to hear how it works out for you! Best wishes!
    1061 days ago
  • v NOWORNEVER1982
    Wow! So excited for you about the meeting. That would be awesome if you were able to have that training and essentially, for free! I used to do crossfit (rehabbing from knee surgery so don't do it now) and I LOVED every minute of it. It kicks your butt and is frustrating but the strength you gain is crazy. I'm glad to see that you're taking charge and not letting the drama llamas (haha, love that) bring you down! emoticon
    1061 days ago
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