I had so many blog ideas from this past week, that I just decided I'm going to put them all into one blog. So I apologize in advance for all the random thoughts and paragraphs and pictures!
We spent the week in San Antonio (about 4 hours from my home) just to kinda relax, get away, and take the girls to Sea World. It's not always easy to relax away from home, but thankfully I had no food-anxiety or external pressure to social-eat or indulge on unnecessary junk. So I did end up enjoying myself.
Here's from the San Antonio Riverwalk
Here's a couple from Sea World
FOOD, BODY IMAGE, COMFORT, AND VACATION
Ok, I used to HATE, HATE, HATE going on vacation because I've always been heavy (or, at least, as a child I was considered 'heavy.' By today's standards I would be considered 'normal'). I would eat alot and stuff myself too much and end up feeling uncomfortable and not enjoying myself. So in a sense, yes it's about body image because of course a girl likes to look good. But also, it's about feeling comfortable. Even today when people ask me what the greatest thing about losing weight is, I tell the absolute honest truth... and that is COMFORT.
With that being said, I can't imagine how the majority of the people at Sea World yesterday were comfortable. The only foods available were sugary sodas and frozen lemonades, ice cream, cheap pizzas and hamburgers (cheap in quality, not in price), and smoked turkey legs. I ate about half of a smoked turkey leg. But everywhere I looked, people were stuffing their selves with all of this junk. And believe me, I haven't become judgemental or snobbish about it. I'm genuinely curious how we, as a people, live like this. Texas (especially San Antonio) is really, really, really hot. Everyone was dripping with sweat and red from a combination of sun and cellular malnutrition from binging on junk, I'm sure. I know, cause I've been there. It's not fun to carry around a 100+ pound blanket in that kind of weather. There were a lot of people rolling around in scooters because their bodies were too large to walk around all day. But what was really sad were all of the morbidly obese children.
CHILDREN AND OBESITY
I do not promote a culture of shame, and I don't endorse any kind of shaming or hatred. But as a concerned citizen of a country that is obviously in the midst of an epidemic, I just can't ignore what I'm seeing. It's one thing to see grown, consenting adults walking around in bikinis flaunting bodies that they have put absolutely no effort into caring for. But to see malnourished and sick children walking around in this condition... it's just scary. Also, I'd like to point out that when a person is in a severe state of morbid obesity, the malnourishment on a cellular level is just as acute and severe as a person in an extreme state of anorexia... FWIW.
People act like they're just shocked when they see a consenting adult, who is obviously healthy and conscientious, walking around like this...
But this is becoming more and more and more common with our youth (she was no older than 10)...
Anyway, I'll get off my soap box. I've never been "skinny." My BMI is currently about 21.5 so I realize I'm "thin" or "average." What's important to me is that I'm comfortable. And I honestly don't judge another person's comfort level. But as a nurse I'm aware of some of the health concerns that these children face. It's not that I don't care about the adults, it's just that they can make their own decisions and it's their business. i feel very badly for the children who are literally starving to death inside a body that is 5 times the size it should be.
Traveling and Food
This is not as difficult as it was 6 or 7 years ago. Or really even about a year ago! I've become accustomed to wanting more healthy food. And so have my family. When I do desire a treat, I am picky. This is nice.
Here is my oldest daughter chowing down on some beets at a salad bar...
Here is my youngest munching on salad...
When we ate out at restaurants I tried to pick the wise options. But I also made a lot of trips to grocery stores. Fruits and Veggies are the ULTIMATE fast food, y'all!
Here's an indulgent meal I enjoyed... authentic Mole (not from a jar) on chicken thigh. Rich and sultry! I was able to eat about a third of it! I'm not always a health nut! Mole is about 100 calories per tbsp!
My dogs were so happy to see us get home!