Friday, July 05, 2013
Holidays/Birthdays/ Get togethers for me have always been making everything PERFECT the house , the food, the atmosphere .. Making everyone happy and I got lost in that and really had a hard time enjoying the moment as I was always too worried about everyone and everything else. I am not joking I would already be thinking about the mess to clean up , the food to put away. .while I was suppose to be enjoying the MOMENT !! I just didn't know how to do it..
I have come far on this journey. I realize the perfect Journey is the one I am on .The way it is going is perfect for me.. I am not stressed about how many pounds or how much exercise I got this week. I am not worried about it being perfect to impress everyone. .oh look at Dawn she is a rock star.. Not this time .. this time I am working on doing it right , the way I need to do it to keep it off. I am learning to let go of PERFECT .. and yet Accept what I am doing is Perfect for me. Sounds like a contradiction but to me it sounds PERFECT !!
So last night was the 4th always good food , good company and me running around not being able to enjoy it.. BUT NOT THIS YEAR !! Well Last night was Perfect .. I didn't worry , or run around. As I type at 2:38pm cst I still have dishes to go into the dishwasher.. and bottles to pick up .. I did put the food in the fridge last night but that was about it. I got to sit by the fire pit and Enjoy the night talking and not worrying about everybody else.. Instead of me getting everything for everyone.. The one going in to grab a beer would ask the table and get it.. So I was not always the one.. We all brought in dishes and put into sink.. It was really PERFECT to let PERFECT go and just enjoy the night..
We are having a get together on tuesday.. I am hoping it goes PERFECT too .. if you know what I mean. I am planning on having food in crock pots and just doing it easy. I will enjoy the night by the fire pit talking and know that I can let it go now and it will be PERFECT !!
Learning to let go of PERFECT .. is just what I needed to find not PERFECT but find how great being IN THE MOMENT IS !!
Hope everyone has a Perfectly Peaceful Weekend.. if you know what I mean.. letting go and just being NOW !! well that is PERFECT !!