Friday, July 05, 2013
My life has been full of ups and downs, as with anyone and I discovered The Secret which has been a tremendous help but I like to add on and keep it going and full of zest, so I listen to many other things, reading, tapes, cd's , you tube, netflix, etc that cover this and many years ago I read a book by Tony Robbins "Awaken the giant within" such a wonderful book, I listen to him on youtube and thought I would Blueprint, find out what I was looking for by force of habit, see if there were any habits that I developed along my childhood that may be holding me back and I realized so much but today I talked to a childhood friend that I have not spoken to in years and she recalled some things about my childhood that I had forgotten or was really not aware of. As childrn me and my sister lost our dad at the age of 4 and 5 , our mom was not really able to handle it but did what she could at least thats what I thought, while I was taling with my friend she recalled an incident between her mom and my mom, as always we were out of food and my moms friend bought groceries for us so we could eat but my mom refused it, to her is she could not get it herself we could not have it, it really hit me just what was in my personal blueprint, how in the very back of my mind starting from a very early age this type of thinking was instilled in me, I have gone beyond it in most of my life but hat seed that was planted is still there and I am so happy to have discovered it ! it seems weird how much we forget and at the same time hold on, something that serves no purpose, my mom is still like this and it is more evident each year, she seems very hateful and I guess growing up it seemed normal and as I made my own path I had many difficulties from holding onto how I was raised , I am privileged to have uncovered that seed, now weed killer!!!!, lol and on to many more discoveries and reshaping of my personal blueprint.