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Friday, July 05, 2013

My life has been full of ups and downs, as with anyone and I discovered The Secret which has been a tremendous help but I like to add on and keep it going and full of zest, so I listen to many other things, reading, tapes, cd's , you tube, netflix, etc that cover this and many years ago I read a book by Tony Robbins "Awaken the giant within" such a wonderful book, I listen to him on youtube and thought I would Blueprint, find out what I was looking for by force of habit, see if there were any habits that I developed along my childhood that may be holding me back and I realized so much but today I talked to a childhood friend that I have not spoken to in years and she recalled some things about my childhood that I had forgotten or was really not aware of. As childrn me and my sister lost our dad at the age of 4 and 5 , our mom was not really able to handle it but did what she could at least thats what I thought, while I was taling with my friend she recalled an incident between her mom and my mom, as always we were out of food and my moms friend bought groceries for us so we could eat but my mom refused it, to her is she could not get it herself we could not have it, it really hit me just what was in my personal blueprint, how in the very back of my mind starting from a very early age this type of thinking was instilled in me, I have gone beyond it in most of my life but hat seed that was planted is still there and I am so happy to have discovered it ! it seems weird how much we forget and at the same time hold on, something that serves no purpose, my mom is still like this and it is more evident each year, she seems very hateful and I guess growing up it seemed normal and as I made my own path I had many difficulties from holding onto how I was raised , I am privileged to have uncovered that seed, now weed killer!!!!, lol and on to many more discoveries and reshaping of my personal blueprint.
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    Wow! That sounds like a big discovery. Funny how we can forget the way things affected us when they seemed normal at the time. As you said...."now the weed killer!"
    1710 days ago
    Great blog. I lost my dad when I was 8 and so I understand whay you have been through. There were things my mom did that I don't want to do in my lifetime. I have been reproved for doing some things differently . But I know there are some ways that I do are more sanitary and healthy then what I had growing up. You can have a grest life now. I am glad to be born in this generation because things are better.
    1711 days ago
    Isn't it amazing how we "edit" our lives, especially when we are children? To some extent this is called "neural pruning" and we do it to condense the input in our brains. Think how horrible it would be to actively remember everything!
    You've got to be commended for all your searching and reading. It's made you a much stronger person, one who is in charge of her own life. Get out the Weed Killer and have a blast.
    1713 days ago
    Great blog. Thanks for sharing.
    1713 days ago
    I think that is GREAT that you are re-discovering all these new things about yourself. I admire your exploration of your past and who you are. it's just amazing how family /our past can effect our present lives. emoticon
    1714 days ago
    Thank you for sharing!! You Can Do It!!!
    1714 days ago
    “we are product of our past but we dont have to be prisoners of it.”

    ― Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here for?
    1715 days ago
    Thankyou so much for this...I too had an old school friend...well not sure she was a friend at school....who shared some things that I had no idea about which put some things in place of what i thought I knew....
    It is very enlightening when that happens.....
    Very helpful too for moving forward without the extra baggage....go you
    1715 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/5/2013 7:46:10 PM
  • SAMI199
    emoticon Thanks -I really like this.
    1715 days ago
    Good job at identifying your habits! Now comes the hardest part.... the changing of those habits! It's not easy! I myself am finding it very difficult to change childhood habits! You can do it! Good luck!
    1715 days ago
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