Thursday, July 04, 2013
I always love the 4th of July. It's a great day to pause and think about what an amazing country I live in and to honor and remember the men and women who've sacrificed it all to ensure our ongoing freedom. Thank you to all who continue to defend the United States!
It's quite the juxtaposition of ideas to be celebrating my freedom, and yet obsessing over how UN-free I feel. I know that's not a real word, but it struck me that way when I was working out earlier (HOORAY - got a workout in!). I have made myself a prisoner in my own mind with negative thinking, fear and stubbornness. I have trapped myself inside a body that struggles to keep up with my poor choices.
I've been reading some success stories, and I keep noticing one particular phrase - "I had to break out of my comfort zone". I wonder... how can I possibly be comfortable living like this? I've gotten USED TO being like this. I've made excuses. I've lowered my own standards. I've compromised my own self-worth.
I'm feeling more ready to face all this. I'm not comfortable where I am, or who I am. I realize that I have to change lots of things in my life.