Please excuse the awful condition of my toenail polish haha, but this was just too exciting NOT to share!
I did it, I DID IT!!! Never woulda thought that ONE freakin pound would be so exciting... but it's the ONE freakin pound that changes that oh-so-big 2 at the front of my weight, to a 1. YES!!!!
Happy Independence Day to me!
Finally. 7 months later. When I first started on this journey back in January, I was somewhat mislead by the trackers on SP. After all.. I ate what I was supposed to eat. I exercised how I was supposed to exercise. I believed I could lose 2lbs a week. Well... that didn't exactly happen. And it almost was the end of it all for me.
I'm numbers driven. Always have been. I NEED VISIBLE results. People telling me, "You can definitely tell you've lost weight" That doesn't mean jack you-know-what to me. People say that all the time. People lie to make people feel good. Maybe it's true, maybe it's not. To me.. I feel like I look the same. I'm sure I don't. After all I've lost 31 pounds.... it HAS to show somewhere right?
I mean I fit into clothes that haven't fit in years. But... I look in the mirror and still see the same double chin, the same rolls on the neck and it's hard to stay motivated. I wish the face fat went first... I really do. But then again, I guess if it did, I'd probably stop being as motivated to lose. It's the fat face, that keeps me from letting anyone take my pictures. And it's wanting to have family pictures taken that is my main motivation to lose weight. Aside from being healthy of course. But the vain physical aspect is... I want to stop hiding from cameras. I want to take pictures with my kids and proudly display them. And while I have these extra chins, and these rolls, that wont happen. I cry when I see myself.
I've become a master at the "selfie" I know how to angle the camera just right to diminish the rolls. But ok... I have noticed that the selfie pose has gotten easier. And hell... in some of my selfies, I actually look like my face is skinny. Ok so maybe you can tell I've lost 31 pounds.... or at least that I've lost something.
I had a rough patch over the last couple weeks. It started as me trying to work harder to lose the weight. I started walking. Anywhere from 1.5 to 2.5 miles a day at least 5 days a week. But then for whatever reason... the exercise stalled the weight loss. Weather it was because I'm building muscle, or retaining water in my muscles as they get used to the walking, or not eating enough, or whatever number of reasons people have told me. The loss stopped. I actually gained 2lbs back. And I was PISSED OFF. Severely.
Seriously.. I'm knocking myself out eating healthy. Cutting things out of my diet that I truly love, but know that if I eat them, I will NOT lose weight. Getting up in the morning, walking, sweating my butt off. And I gain freakin weight? NOT. COOL.
I even posted on the boards. And of course heard all the reasons why. Heard to start taking measurements instead of just relying on the scale. But still... it's the SCALE that keeps me motivated. Or holds me accountable.
So it was an extremely relief to me when I stood on that scale this morning and saw onederland for the first time in... well damn.... 9 years.
Motivation back on!!! And back on with a vengeance.
Of course I have a weekend getaway coming up at the end of this month. So I'm hoping that now that I made it through the stall, the loss will pick back up and I can get a decent amount off before then. But only time will tell me that one.
So that's it for this awesome July 4th. Need to fix some dinner and get ready to go watch some fireworks.
Sparkle on Sparkers =D