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WOW! Four years ago today I joined Spark -- What a great decision!

Thursday, July 04, 2013

As I logged on this morning, I realized that I have been a member of SP for four years. When I think about all I have learned, the friends I have made, the freely given support, love and appreciation -- I am truly blessed. It has been an incredible learning experience, and I realize that I am ready to tackle the unknown.

The first year or so hanging around here, I bobbled around, I hung out in the Café, made a few friends, explored some teams, and yo-yo'd up and down a bit. Then a little over 2 years ago, something clicked -- I realized that the people on my teams and the friends I had made were serious -- they weren't just hanging out talking about losing weight and keeping it off, they were really doing it. The support, care and advice there were giving was 100% genuine and sincere. These cool people really wanted me to succeed and reach my goals, they wanted to help me, to celebrate with me. That was the day I got off the yo-yo, I started losing again -- and more amazingly I have been able to keep it off.

Thanks to Spark I got down to 181 and have been able to maintain that average weight for over 2 years. Prior to that, the smallest weight I can ever remember seeing on the scale was in gym class in 7th grade -- I was 185. I even fit into my prom dress, and the dress I wore to my stepson's wedding is 2 sizes smaller than the one I wore to my Jr. Prom (I realize that sizes have changed over the years -- but it is still cool).

While I have been maintaining, it has been a great learning experience -- it isn't easy. I always operated under the illusion that once I got to 'goal' life would be easy and perfect. Life has a way of humbling you.

When I first got to a 14 and hit the 180s, I made the decision to maintain my weight -- I am the size I was in 7th grade -- I was/am unable to comprehend the possibility of anything less.
The first time I bought jeans outside the plus section, I cried and couldn't get them into the cart -- even though I had tried them on. When I shopped for my dress for my step-son's wedding I started in the plus-size mother of the grooms section. Still, I will look down and see my wrists and be surprised they are mine, or hang up a blouse and be in shock that I wear that. Sometimes I still see the 375+lb Terr looking back at me in the mirror, and sometimes I barely remember her.

I truly think fear of the unknown stopped me at 181 -- today, I realize that I am ready to stop maintaining and start losing again. I am going for a size 12 -- I have never been there before -- at least not that I can remember. After that, who knows. Thanks to my friends at SP -- I can do anything!

Thank you for the last 4 years!

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    Wow you have done AMAZING! Thanks for the inspiration and keep up the great work!!

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    1508 days ago
    Went through all your blogs and definitely your journey was not easy.You have finally made it and are still working at it. Your story is inspiring and you are looking great. All the very best to you. emoticon
    1548 days ago
    Phenomenal journey!!! We all celebrate your success with you!!! It is so motivating to be able shop for smaller sizes. Excited for your next chapter!!

    1549 days ago
    Wow! Such wonderful words of wisdom! Thanks for sharing!
    I started losing quickly in May when I first joined SP, Then in July, right about the time I tend to quit my diets, I too lived off of the SP friendships. Slowly through their and your perseverance I realized I can't quit. I won't quit and now ever so slowly I make changes I can live with. And losing again!
    Thanks for supporting me when I needed it! emoticon emoticon
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    1687 days ago
    You are amazing! Congrats on all of your success. You will see that size 12! Visualize it, really see it, believe it, and it will happen!
    1691 days ago
    You are absolutely AMAZING! What determination and persistence...and what a dramatic transformation... I find your pictures to be such an inspiration, as I'm sure many here on Spark will. I just became acquainted with your story and SparkPage this evening...and what a beautiful, delightful lady you have become. Congratulations!!! emoticon
    1691 days ago
    emoticon Sounds like you're doing wonderful!! I joined about the time you did, and have been off and on, but have slowly lost weight - although I also have been in a plateau for a while. Best wishes on the new stage of your journey!!!
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    1692 days ago
    The last 5 years of my life have been a tuning point. weight loss was always an issue no matter if I was 110 or 150 . But... more importantly was the issue of how I viewed . NOW I am proactive ...after being an federal witness and a real participant in my life ...weight is no longer an ego based dilemma but a choice emoticon
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    1694 days ago
    Oh my!!!! You deserve a standing ovation . You look great!!! and I don't think another size will be a big deal for you.

    Keep up the ama emoticon zing work !
    1694 days ago
  • TINY67
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    1694 days ago
    That's awesome that you have mastered maintenance before proceeding. Lots of research says that's the key to permanent loss, and you have found it!! Awesome!!
    1694 days ago
    Wonderful blog! You have done an amazing job and look beautiful! You stuck around long enough to find out what worked for you and kept pushing until you reached your goal. When I have looked at your former 375 pound picture I don't recognize it as you. In your pictures now you always have a big smile. It's wonderful to see you so happy and successful.
    1694 days ago
    Terr, you're very wise to have paused where you paused and learned what you needed to learn at 181. So often people seem to rush to their "final" goal and then flounder once they reach it.

    I love the way you have always appreciated the health benefits you enjoy at least as much as the weight loss. I've quoted you many times to newcomers - "I bought a boat with the money I don't spend on medications anymore." (Bet you didn't know you were still being inspirational even when you weren't the one commenting!)

    You're one of the first "voices of support" I heard on SparkPeople and I'm always happy to see your name appear on a thread or a blog! I'm sure you'll reach whatever goal you decide to set for yourself, and you can be sure we'll all be there to support YOU and cheer you on!

    Excellent blog! Thanks!

    1694 days ago
    Congratulations - this week was my 5th year here and I experienced some of the same stuff you describe and am working hard to get rid of my excess - been pretty serious this past year and expect by the same time next year (your two years) to be shedding my tears as I get back into NORMAL sizes again. You are awesome and a true role model.
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    1694 days ago
    congrats! I would love to follow in your shoes and be a member for that long. I've been here a month so far. you have such great dedication. I am working towards a size 12 in pants. on top I wear a medium but in pants a 14/16. my eventual goal would be to wear a size 9/10. not sure what in pounds that would be.
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  • ICEANGEL0531
    Congratz. Good luck on your new goal
    1694 days ago
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