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The Journey full of questions

Thursday, July 04, 2013

These last two days have had me wondering about my journey. Why I keep coming back to Spark and don't just throw in the towel and say "this just isn't working for me". Well there is a reason I have been on spark for the last four years. I love the community, articles, ideas, recipes. Now if I would just use it to the best of my ability I bet it would be awesome. But I don't. I cave after a few good days, just like this past week. I've had great days all in a row and then yesterday for some reason i'm hungry. No other way to put it I was hungry....all day long. So I ate. Well then I get that "what have I done feeling" and then the mood shifts and I think Why bother I won't ever reach my goals. The guilt and the woe is me attitude begins in earnest.

So what to do? Do I quit and give up on my goals because one day I may have had a bad day, do I just pick up where I left off the day before and move forward, do I throw up my hands and kick myself in the butt and push forward? Mostly I do all these things then I get back to Spark. Spark has become my life raft. I see so many friends leave for unknown reasons but for me I have this fear that if I leave I may never return and I love myself to know that I want to be healthy and without you all I will not get there from here. So I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and I get moving. Literally moving. I walked 3.15 miles yesterday morning and it was awesome. Did I want to? Not really at first...I had to push myself. But I did it.

So I keep on moving on and hey maybe today will be the day for my aha moment.

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    emoticon I hope your Independence Day is healthy and Happy.
    1539 days ago
    Enjoy your independence today!
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    Every day you can make a new declaration!
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    I would miss you so much if you quit. Also you would miss the to succeed. emoticon
    1540 days ago
    Michelle, I think the journey does get easier because it becomes habit. Yes, we do have days like your yesterday ... and my yesterday. I ate more yesterday than I wish I had, but there are going to be days like that. The good news is that we worked out, we didn't throw in the towel, and we're continuing on.

    My theory is that every day, I track (honestly) what I eat. I exercise. I do the best that I can for that day. Some days are better than the day before. But the more I keep doing this, the more I learn about me so the better I can do.

    I'm so very glad that you've stayed! You're soooooo worth the effort!
    1540 days ago
    There will never be a day when you wake up and it's easy. The "ah hah" moment is about easy but about believing that you can find a way to do what you want to do in those moments when it IS easy.
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