Thursday, July 04, 2013
So Day 3 didn't happen at all.
I lost out to my anxiety, again. It wasn't even really about the class. Well, maybe a little, but more just me being upset and pissed at life.
So how does it work? How can you have something that just really pisses you off, and then just let it go and not effect the rest of your day? It seems I've never learned that concept.
So something set me off today, and I went onto a rant forum on Ravelry to, well, rant about it. It's supposed to be a place to let off steam. But of course, there is always that one person that has to point out something that just pisses you off even more.
I don't know why I get so upset over such little things. Maybe I was never taught to let go as a child? Maybe I picked up the habit of holding a grudge from my mother, who, by the way, I still hold a huge grudge against?
Any way, I was way to worked up and exhausted to make the trip out to the yoga studio, so I decided to just come home and weep in shame.
I am going tomorrow though, since I have a day off. I'll get to sleep in, which is nice, because I've been cutting my sleeping hours down by way too much lately. I think I got maybe 5 hours last night? That may explain why I was so cranky all day.
It could also have something to do with the fact that I chose to do this on a week that I'm working 10 hour days in order to earn some comp time. I'm thinking now that that may have been a bad idea on my part.
Oh well. There is always tomorrow!