Wednesday, July 03, 2013
I'm so grateful for the opportunity to start 'fresh' every single day... it's literally like the analogy of turning the page. You can be in a moment or 'scene' in your book where things are pretty intense and difficult, challenging, but then you turn the page and you can see things turning around.
We are the directors of our own lives and while there are some things out of our control - we always have the choice of how we react to any events or circumstances.
I was pulled in a downward slump as I was overwhelmed with family matters - but I feel as though July 1st was like the turning of a page for us.
My oldest daughter is off to Florida for the summer - so a break for her. My youngest is proving to be making an effort where I can trust her again to be on her own. The things we take for granted at times I'm truly recognizing as amazing right now... like how my youngest is happier and making friends again. She's been following my instructions about staying in touch while out and checking in and of course coming home to an agreed time. Today was the first day - but it's giving me hope that perhaps the hardest moments are behind us.
Yesterday, I got to spend time with my friend and I have to say, he truly lifted my spirits. I felt great and as I left we exchanged texts and we'll be seeing each other again sometime next week.
- I'm not sure where this is going and I'm not going to analyze it - but rather just enjoy the moments. For now we're friends who see each other when our schedules permit. It will be interesting to see what the summer will bring as we both may have a bit more free time.
I did 60 mins of exercise and stayed in my calorie range. It was the BLC weigh in today and I was down 3.5lbs from last Wednesday's weigh in - at 167.5lbs today. My weight had creeped up with the stress - but I'm almost back to my ticker weight (I haven't changed it because I'm hoping by next Wednesday I can make it move down a bit more).
I asked to be removed from Sick Bay and I'm ready to make Week 5 the best one yet for this round of BLC.
It truly feels good to be turning the page... soaking in the goodness that is once again coming into my life.
for all your well wishes and prayers... they are working!!