Wednesday, July 03, 2013
Today marks a major milestone for me: my 6 month Sparkiversary!
Six months ago, completely fed up with my weight and having just hit the highest I've ever been, I signed up here.
I had ballooned up so quickly, and my fitness level was abysmal. I felt sluggish and didn't sleep well. I ached all the time. I was embarrassed about myself and unhappy in general. I was frustrated looking back at all the attempts I'd had at losing weight before and mad at myself thinking of where I could have been if only I had just stuck with it any of those hundreds of times before.
So I began. I focused on loving myself and accepting myself where I was instead of judging myself based on where I thought I should be. In fact, I've tried to keep that focus as I've continued through these six months. And what an incredible six months it's been!
Six months ago, I was a smoker. Now, I'm less than 2 weeks away from having gone 6 months as a non-smoker!
Six months ago, I weighed over 300 pounds. Now, even after an incredibly frustrating 3 month stall, I'm rapidly approaching the mid-200's - 38 pounds lost as of this morning.
Six months ago, walking at 2.3 mph on the treadmill was seriously hard. Now, 2.3 mph on the treadmill won't even get my heart rate up high enough to count as exercise.
Six months ago, I wouldn't have dared to seek out a yoga studio and instructor. Now, not only have I taken private yoga lessons, but I've also joined a class - I do yoga in front of people!
Six months ago, I had quit a million times after small set backs or after failing to see results. Now, I've journeyed through a three month plateau that happened right at the beginning before I got to see results at all, and instead of giving in to my fear that I would simply be unable to lose, I kept trying new things 'til I figured out what worked for my body.
Six months ago, I physically could not jog at all. Now, I've signed up to do my first half marathon, which has a time limit that will mean I have to jog at least part of it. I'm that confident in my ability to complete this.
It's so fun to look back and see what all I've accomplished in just 6 short months. Frankly, I'm incredibly proud of myself. I'm proud that I didn't give up, and I'm proud of the fitness level I've attained. I'm proud that I'm still here - still engaging and participating. I'm so proud that I've proved to myself that I can do this!
Even more than I'm proud, though, I'm hopeful and I'm excited. If I'm already this far along - physically and maybe more importantly, mentally - after 6 months, I truly know that I can accomplish anything. Even if it takes longer than I'd initially planned, I know the journey ahead of me will be just as wonderful as these past 6 months have been! I can't wait to see where I go!