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What really has been eating at me

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

I know since yesterday that my eating has been off the charts lately and I have been watching my husband drink and drink his beers lately to the point that I have become so very mad. Then I stopped and realized the more he drinks the more junk food I have been eating. Don't get me wrong this is the man I have loved from my soul I love him so very much but I have never thought that he is like a throne in my side. I have been eating while he is drinking I think that if he is drunk he will not know that I am eating bad, but I see and feel my self losing my self control of life, my sanity is so sick that I feel I really need a wake up call and today I came back to spark people to get my long forgotten fix I need the encouragement and ability to share myself with others who don't judge me. I really need to just settle my thoughts and get back to where I know I have been at before and where I enjoyed visiting before I love this place I sometimes when I don't feel that I am worthy enough to be here I will leave but this time it will be for good. Thanks for letting myself come back and be able to write down my feelings out loud. I will be giving this website to my sister who like me has always been part of the women who has fallen from the healthy eating styles thanks again.
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    So glad you have come back to Sparks...So have I after a 1-1/2 break. Spark Friends never criticize, they just love, support and pray that all goes well for you. It's good your blogging, it helps you get it out and release your frustrations.
    Hugs and prayers your way.
    1618 days ago
    Welcome Home my friend. Best wishes on your goals and I am keeping you and your Hubby in my thoughts and prayers. Sandy
    1619 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/6/2013 10:05:37 PM
    I sent a prayer for both you and your husband. It sounds like he needs help as much as you do. The advantage is that you know you need help and he doesn't yet. Stay strong! emoticon
    1621 days ago
  • TERRY789
    It is so hard when we are triggered by others people's actions or reactions. It is weighs our spirit down and it is so easy for us to seek comfort in food. I am glad you came back and were able to share what you are going through. Just know that you are not alone.

    God Bless you and enfold you with his presence.
    1621 days ago
    Step by step, you can reach your goals. Your blog's undercurrent says, you know you are in control of your choces.
    1622 days ago
    I am happy that you came back - this is a nurturing place to be.

    Oh, precious one, you are worthy - don't let any lying thoughts that you are not to control your life walk.

    God bless & keep you safely under His wing of provision & protection!

    1622 days ago
    1622 days ago
    At least you found your trigger....sometimes it takes us a long time. Mine is my hubby too & his laziness! It angers me then I get lazy & lethargic and eat junk food nonstop...ugh!

    God bless & enjoy the 4th!

    1622 days ago
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