Wednesday, July 03, 2013
I know since yesterday that my eating has been off the charts lately and I have been watching my husband drink and drink his beers lately to the point that I have become so very mad. Then I stopped and realized the more he drinks the more junk food I have been eating. Don't get me wrong this is the man I have loved from my soul I love him so very much but I have never thought that he is like a throne in my side. I have been eating while he is drinking I think that if he is drunk he will not know that I am eating bad, but I see and feel my self losing my self control of life, my sanity is so sick that I feel I really need a wake up call and today I came back to spark people to get my long forgotten fix I need the encouragement and ability to share myself with others who don't judge me. I really need to just settle my thoughts and get back to where I know I have been at before and where I enjoyed visiting before I love this place I sometimes when I don't feel that I am worthy enough to be here I will leave but this time it will be for good. Thanks for letting myself come back and be able to write down my feelings out loud. I will be giving this website to my sister who like me has always been part of the women who has fallen from the healthy eating styles thanks again.