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Thinking Through It All


Wednesday, July 03, 2013

I went for a jog this morning. I made myself go slowly so I didn't give up, also because it was so hot and humid, I didn't want to pass out. emoticon

I think I still have an Eating Disorder. I guess it never fully goes away. I dealt with this as a young adult. I got tons better, but I think it's still lurks in the recesses of my brain many years later. I have been panicking about gaining weight and then I focus really hard on how to fix it...which puts my focus back on food and what I can eat. I get consumed and it becomes a vicious cycle.

Today, I decided I need to let it go. I will focus on eating healthier and making better choices, but I can not focus so hard on it, it makes me hyper focus on dieting and food. My husband said something yesterday that got me thinking. He said, all you are thinking about is food. And he was right. I have to let it go.

I'm certainly not giving up Sparkpeople, because I need to see what nutrients I am getting. I will keep using the things that I have learned from Eat to Live and other books. But, I need to focus on living. "Dieting" and even "healthy eating" can become a hobbies and even obsessions for me. I'm sure it's healthy for some people. But, since I have a history of Eating Disorder, my father was an alcoholic (got to be the same faulty gene), then I need to be careful.

Better choices, fitness goals that are attainable, living life and making friends are probably the only ways I'm going to get healthy.

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STONECOT 7/3/2013 7:16PM

    I also have a latent and undiagnosed eating disorder. I found that tracking made me obsessive. I started with a hypnotherepists book, 'I Can Make You Thin' and I still, 60lbs lighter, follow his golden rules. Eat when hungry. Eat slowly. Eat what you fancy, not what you think is good for you, and, Stop as soon as you start to be full.

After watching a TV programme about the health benefits of fasting, I started fasting, (5:2 diet) two days a week, for 24hrs at a time. That killed the addiction to food stone dead, and I have lost a further 14lbs.

I don't know if this is of help, but I hope it might be.

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KERRYG155 7/3/2013 3:13PM

    Try to not think of them as foods you CAN"T eat but maybe foods that you will eat another day or just a taste unless that sets you off and you can't stop. I have that issue with some foods so I just say maybe next week I'll have that.

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DS9KIE 7/3/2013 2:44PM

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Just don't think about it just eat emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon



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DIBANANA 7/3/2013 2:25PM

  Good luck. It must be hard to deal with your eating disorder. Keeping track of your nutrients is indeed important.

Hang in there.

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