Wednesday, July 03, 2013
Food can definitely be an addiction. I have a difficult time looking at food and not being tempted to eat it. I can only take it for so long before I give in. I cannot say that every time I reach my calorie goal for the day I quit eating. I used to. I am trying to. Sometimes I am still hungry, which is good, because it means I am set up to lose some weight. I will gauge what I eat and only eat a small amount more, being careful not to eat a whole meal. For me, I must mention, reaching my calorie goal is hitting the bottom end of things, not the top. Technically, I am not really going over or seldom do. If I do not track my food, I am guaranteed to go over and probably by a large amount, at least gauging by the scale not moving or moving in the wrong direction. I should not sell myself short, though, in that I no longer care and continue to eat too much on a daily basis. That is not what is best for me. That is what caused my blood pressure to build and for me to lose my self esteem, at least partially. I CAN do this and I am worth it. My grandkids want me to be around for a while. They aren't even born yet. They deserve to get to know me. People are glad that one day, many years ago :), I was born. I have a lot to offer and don't want to screw it up over a doughnut or a piece of pie. How tragic would that be?? Just think how my self esteem is going to grow with every pound lost. Think how much more I will be capable of by killing this dragon. I was worth putting here on this earth so there must be something someone still needs to hear or a hug still needing to be given. I love my job. I want to continue at it as long as I can. I touch lives every single day. It's time I see my own worth and invest in it. As in life there will be bumps, but the valley is not where I make my home. Why? Because I have a life worth living and I'm going to live it for the best and the best is still yet to come!