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Down but not out…

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

Yes, I have failed yet another attempt to lose this weight. It’s not that I don’t want to….it’s just that I don’t seem to have the motivation to get it done.

I’m tired of messing around. I can’t continue on this path. Things are getting critical for me as my health has really been nose diving in the past couple of years.

So…I made a decision.

I need another tool to achieve my goal. Sparkpeople will still be an important part of my choice but the choice is the kick start to what I need. Some of you may boo my decision but at the end of the day…it is my decision and it’s your choice to follow me on my journey or not. And I hope you do….I still very much need you and your support.

I have decided to pursue weight loss surgery. I had started the process 3 years ago and then I lost my job…and my insurance…so I had to stop the process. I think that was probably a good thing as I have changed my mind about the type of surgery I want. So I have my first appointment at the end of the month. I hope I get insurance approval. So far so good and I have already met my deductible for the year, so that is a plus.

I really, really want this. I’m excited and super scared. But I know in my heart it is the path I need to take. It isn’t an easy fix. It’s a tool to help me start the process. I know I can do it. I want you to take this journey with me. I know I am going to need you!

I will share more as time goes on…but for now know that I am here and I am going to make this positive change. It’s not for everybody….but I owe it to myself to pursue it!

Have a great 4th!



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    It's a new day to start fresh! You CAN do this. I have faith in you!! emoticon emoticon
    1719 days ago
  • NANCY-
    You know yourself best and need to do what is best for you.
    1722 days ago
    we are here for you you will need lots of work and motivation to get where you want to be and stay there we are here for you we all have our own hills to climb some trickier than others hugs
    1722 days ago
  • WILDKAT781
    I've known several people who had surgery...
    While I don't think surgery is the way to go (I personally think it is too dangerous) ....I do think that it is your right to decide for yourself....I support you fully in your decision!

    Keep us posted in how you are doing

    1722 days ago
    emoticon I support you! I look forward to hearing more about it. There was a Julie on here and she explained all about having to do the work after the surgery. It's not "snip, snap, doodle, done." It changed her life for the better though. (Too bad she doesn't post any more I think you'd enjoy chatting with her.)

    emoticon Wishing you well.
    1722 days ago

    We all follow our own path . The idea is to get to your destination. I won't fly so there you go. We all travel a different path. I am always here for you and kind of miss you alot when you are gone so long between posts. I am so glad you believe you are worth the work. Keep us posted.

    1723 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Yeah, if this is what you really want to do - I wish you success. Best wishes!! emoticon
    1723 days ago
    I have known several people who have done this surgery with varying degrees of success. Go for it! HUGS!
    1723 days ago
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