"What other questionable choices I've made?"
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
There are really only two ways to approach life - as victim or as gallant fighter - and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards or play with a stacked deck. And if you don't decide which way to play with life, it always plays with you.
The events of the past few days have given me much to reflect upon. I was focused on being mindful with my food. There were oh so many temptations. And yes, I did give into some of those temptations. But there were some changes. When I did choose to partake... my portion was much smaller than in years past. More is not always better, besides the best flavor is savored in the first few bites. I did portion off my plate and took home half my generous meal to enjoy as another meal. The rest of the family were members of the Clean Plate Club. (I was a former member.) I was full, how could I have cleaned the plate? Had I chosen to ignore my body's signals all those years.
Another incident gave me much to reflect upon. An EF1 tornado touched down about a 1/4 mile east of my family home. Thankfully there were only property, crop damage and minor injuries. Not like the F4 that touched down west of the home back in 1979. Monday's tornado brought back the vivid memories of the horrific damage, loss of life and severe injuries both physical and mental.
But this is Connecticut!!! We are not supposed to have tornadoes! Or are we? Well folks my perception was faulty. It turns out that Connecticut has 1.3 tornadoes a year, usually of low intensity like the one on July 1st. I feel like that woman in that spaghetti sauce commercial, "I wonder what other questionable choices I've made?" What beliefs do I still hold that are holding me back.
Dr. Beck had us focus on hunger, to make us differentiate between hunger and desire. For me I know I am dealing mostly with desire. WATERMELLEN posted about being okay with hunger.
NELLJONES's comment to the above blog, really struck me:
" Back when I was a kid, there weren't any "snack foods", and it was too much trouble to prepare snacks as well as meals from scratch, so we ate three good meals a day. The expectation of avoiding even the slightest twinge of hunger is very modern, just within the last 50 years or so, led (I believe) by the prepared food industry who profit from people who don't want to be even the tiniest bit hungry....ever. That little bit of hunger means your previous meal was spot on in terms of size and composition, and you will be ready to enjoy your next meal."
My beliefs and actions in regard to food have been ingrained in me from when I was a child. I remember my Grandmother saying to my mother:"Don't you feed these kids?" as she handed us cookies. Desire is not hunger.
There is not blame or guilt to be assigned here, what is past is past. What matters is how I choose to move forward. I am thinking of implementing a household ban on snacking to satisfy desire.
Thank you WATERMELLEN and NELLJONES for helping me gain this perspective.
P.S. I am still working on dealing with cravings and desires and will continue blogging the BDS series soon, so stay tuned, :)