Blog#5 - Not so Good ... :(
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
Okay so I slipped up and did poorly yesterday. Yes, i binged, which was something I didn't think could happen because I was doing so well. But yes, I sadly slipped up and went way over my calories did not track them... i'm going to track it right after I'm done with this blog though (deep breaths! eek!).
Okay I am naturally upset with myself, but I'm forcing myself to stay on track and I'm taking this as a learning experience instead of an excuse to tear myself down. (I'm definitely my biggest bully). I learned 3 things from yesterday:
1. when I plan to go to the gym I need to go right away!
i planned to go to the gym as soon as i got home but I went into my room, sat down at my desk and well... once I sat down my intentions of going to the gym vanished... :(
2. when I am stressed and hungry do NOT go grocery shopping - I need to call someone, walk, do something to get my mind off of food!
i was stressed out last night (I have a lab exam in 2 hours! eek) so returning to old habits means that I went to the cabinet for food. There was no "good binge food" just healthy foods. So you know what I did? I got into my car and drove to the grocery store to buy binge foods. eek. yes I actually went to the grocery store with the intention of wrecking my diet.... hmph.
3. Exams are my trigger! my main trigger. two days before an exam is stressful, but the night before.... that's when I need help. i now know i need to come up with a strategy the night before exams that will prevent me from binging. perhaps I should study in the library? or.... ? hmm just need to figure out a way to avoid binging the night before exams
So I didn't do well yesterday :( but i'm going to work really hard not to let it discourage me and I'm treating this as a learning experience.
Today is a new day! i CAN do this!