Wednesday, July 03, 2013
Today I just want to go back to bed and stay there forever. Last night we had another heated argument, this time with daughter. I am having some really serious issues with the husband about his attitude. It's gotten to the point where not a week goes by that I am not in tears over something. (Im a crier)
My daughter is 18 and has a 2 month old baby. My husband is her step dad. We've had issues in the past but since having the baby my daughter has pretty much stayed here with me/us. Her own dad lives about 2 hours away. She could go stay there but I don't want her to. Her stepmother and I don't get a long, and that is putting it mildly. She's the "C" word and that's the most vulgar thing I can think of to call her.
I just know that that if my husband does something that makes my daughter move out and take the baby, Im not sure I can forgive him for that. I cried myself to sleep thinking about that. I got up to check the driveway to see if her car was still here this morning.
He was mostly the cause of my son and daughter moving out a year ago. Oh my son had a lot to do with it and it's just a big mess there. Now my relationship with my son sucks, but he's always been a daddy's boy.
My husband gets very defensive...and yells. And it's his way or the highway king of thing when he's all heated up. Later he calms down. I told him last night he needed to find a way to communicate better. I don't know if it sank in. I know he cares about my daughter. He'd do anything for her.
We have money issues though right now that stresses him out and a couple of weeks ago he took it out on me. I told him I used to really be bothered and IM starting to worry that it isn't bothering me the way it used to. (Meaning I used to be hurt, now it just pisses me off)
I do know that I might have to get medicated soon because IM starting to get kinda depressed. Im afraid I will be fed up and say I want a divorce. I love him but Im just tired of this.