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Day 12 Juicing #2 & an old picture I found online!

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Scale went down .4 and from now on the ticker will be moving!
Did my hour of zumba, drank my juices, pushed the waters, had some broth.
So all is good on the juicing front. I went to the parents and they had just cooked, it smelled so nice but I was perfectly fin with it.

Today was a better day emotionally, but last night was not. After I wrote my blog and went to bed I got really angry. Talking to the people closest to me, I have come up with options for the emotional detox that is going on. I am not ready for most of these but took some steps. I found numbers that if I decide I want to use, I have them. So while I did that, I thought- if someone was looking for me would they be able to find me? So I went on greek google and if you put my name in English you find pages and pages and pages of me and my numbers, email etc...
So I clicked on links just to see what others would, and one of them was from a friend from my building who is a paparazzo and had taken pictures of the building's art show in 2008... and my picture was there.
I am wearing the same "good"shirt as apparently it was the only one I liked myself in.
So when I went to go to sleep, I was plagued with Anger. Anger that I am so easy to find, and I am not found. Anger that the people around me haven't noticed how much I have changed...Look at my frikin picture and look at me now!
So I tapped away on the anger, on the confusion, on the fact that I want things to be a certain way and they just happen the way they want to. I wrote the emotions in my diary, and finally was able to sleep after 2am.
Woke up at 7am and I just new that the day was going to be much better. I tapped as soon as I got up on any residual feelings. Day went great. I will be revisiting the issues with tapping tonight too.

This is what I have been using to get to the root of it.
Hope I get to bed earlier tonight.
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    Thank you RisingBlueStar. Yes you are right on all accounts and I am so happy that I have all of you to cheer me on. :D emoticon
    1599 days ago
    It's understandable that you felt angry. It's understandable that you want people to see the changes that are being made. You look good. You changed significantly. Some people may not say anything because they may be uncertain whether you want them to or not. Maybe with more time, they will speak up

    . As for not being found, a lot of people are busy with their own lives and aren't necessarily searching for anyone so it is most likely not personal. I know it still hurts though. It can feel like rejection and that's not a good feeling for anyone whether it's personal or not.

    Feel confident in the changes you have made. Celebrate your successes and know that you are one awesome lady whether people are looking for you are not.

    I know one thing for sure. All of your spark friends are glad you are on this site and we notice that you are looking fabulous! emoticon

    1599 days ago
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