Here is an update on my spring and summer:
“Most of the shadows in life are caused by standing in our own sunshine.” Ralph Waldo Emerson
I completed 18 weeks of chemo on June 21. The first two rounds (6weeks) went fairly routinely. I went into the third round and completed four intense treatments on Thursday and by the weekend I had the flu that was going around here in early spring. I lost eleven days as I could not eat, lost almost 10 pounds in eleven days, did not respond to antibiotics and wound up with anemia. The oncologist went ahead with round four even though I could not walk without assistance. I eventually was able to totally take care of myself on a limited basis around the end of May. For four straight weeks after I had the flu, I had to go to the clinic daily. The last of these four weeks was chemo for four days again. My white and red blood counts tanked and I had to finally take injections for my white count and two transfusions of blood. I am beginning to feel human again as the calendar moved into July!
I have been able to work at the computer for 30 minutes but today I wanted to let you know that I am still here and that I never stopped thinking about you! Imagine my surprise when I started back on my computer last week and found email, comments, and even SPGoodies! I apologize to each of you for not being able to answer and am really sorry if the lack of a response caused you to be concerned. On the other side I do hope that each of you know that I felt the strength that you passed on to me.
To my special SP friends listed here I say thanks for being there and it means much! I also know that there are others who have left comments and that I appreciate them also!
KICKIN IT TO CANCER
I will try to keep in touch as I go forward. I also have some good news! It looks as if we have sold the farm and tentatively we have set a date of 8/16 to leave for our new home in NC! I will keep you posted!
In the last week I have been able to go back to reading poetry. Here are a couple that I will share that really run the gamut of my spring and early summer!
I Walked a Mile with Pleasure
By: Robert Browning Hamilton
I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chatted all the way;
But I was none the wiser
For all she had to say.
I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne’er a word said she;
But, oh! The things I learned the day
When sorrow walked with me.
Time To Stop Struggling
Life is unfair, sometimes the sadness we can't bear..
This was a feeling I could never share...
I am strong, strong enough to move on from this pain,
I won't feel the shame, my life is not a game,
I am tired of these tears and my fears...
I will cherish my inspirations...
I will find my dream, I promise, that's what I will achieve..
I believe in miracles,
I won't fall, I may be lost but I will be found...
I will fly like a butterfly through the night, will have a pleasant sight, afraid but I will fight...
Know no boundaries, free my mind of all the pressure,
I want so much to be free, so much I want to see...
I want to reach the sky, I want so much too fly...