SO I worked many many hours volunteering this past weekend at our local ribfest, and discovered something about myself beyond my emotional eating which i have been working hard to correct, if I am over tired I have absolutely no control!!
So the first 2 days of 14 hours on site with many many temptations around from beavertails, to waffles, to jumbo chili hot dogs, twisted potatoes, deep fried mars bars etc, I walked by and stuck to the recommendations of all my SP friends, I packed healthy snacks and meals and hung in there.
Day 3 I still was hanging on by a thread, didnt pack as much helathy choices and gave in once when a friend convinced me to split a guilty treat with her.
Day 4 I was a mess, I could barely process thought let alone find the energy to prepare or cook anything, all I wanted and craved was junk, and I no longer had the willpower to fight off my mental demons. Since sleep wasn't an option food became my only pleasure.
So my realization is I am not a machine, i need so many hours of sleep and rest every day and night, and when those are diminished I have absolutely no willpower.
Lesson learned this weekend:
1. before this happens again get a better plan in place, do not believe I will find the energy to make meals each morning before heading out.
2. ensure I have a friend on board who will ENCOURAGE versus STOP my healthy choices
3. do not get depressed and off track if I make a slip in judgement.
Finally today is my weekly official weigh in, and unfortunately after last week and this weekend, I saw no results. Still the same weight as last Tuesday, but I am determined to get back on track and stay motivated, back to the gym tomorrow and eating healthy today, because I CAN DO THIS!