Tuesday, July 02, 2013
Harry Potter Challenge.
A problem I'd like to address. My laziness. I don't know what else to call it. At work, I'm a rockstar in my ability to focus, physically get stuff done. I come home and it all shuts down. This applies to exercise, cooking, cleaning. Really my entire life outside work is about doing nothing. It's like my brain and body turn off. I'll let things go that shouldn't - this especially relates to cleaning. My car is a disaster of trash. It's not like it would actually be hard to clean. To take a trash bag out to the car and just throw stuff away. I just don't. I don't day after day. I think this is a symptom of my depression.
What stops be from addressing this laziness? I'd have to not be lazy. It's a simple solution and one which I struggle with a lot. It's like... I like a good vacuum, but I don't actually want to vacuum. I like a clean car, but I don't want to clean it.
Mind you, this doesn't apply to me at work at all. I am extremely hard working - from helping customers, to cleaning, to stocking. I work constantly - I get stuff done. I feel obligated at work. At home, I don't. I don't know how to change that mindset. If I felt a sense of obligation at home, it wouldn't be this way. I do what I am obligated to do.
Pros for addressing this:
-I'd be healthier
- I'd feel better
-I'd actually have to do more.
-Less time to do nothing (not sure why doing nothing appeals to me, but it does, and by nothing, I really mean just reading a book or watching tv/movies).
A Habit I'd like to adopt: Regular walking with my dogs.
We do go for walks nearly every day, but it's really a stroll and it's short.
-Dogs would be better for it
-It would give me more energy
-I enjoy counting the amount of miles I walk over time.
-I don't really have any real cons. I keep just thinking, I'd actually have to do more. It's a silly con, but one I fall back on. I just don't want to. And if I'm weighing pros/cons, my default will be to fall back on I don't want to really.
I hope this is how this is to be done.