Tuesday, July 02, 2013
Mood: Stressed, Anxious but Hopeful? Very confusing and conflicting emotions
Health: A little sore but surprising myself with how much strength I have hidden in me
Its now a couple days over a month since my last blog. But I promise, I'd been BUSY! I've accomplished more than I ever thought I could, both mentally and physically...
During my absent blogging, I've completed my first half marathon in 9 years! 9!!! I couldn't believe it myself when I counted down the years, but yea, I did the First Half Wipro marathon earlier in June. I finished it. Unbelievable. Don't get me wrong, the next 2 days I was so sore, I could barely climb down the stairs without crawling down. About 3 days later, while STILL recovering, I went on a crazy King's Canyon backpacking expedition. 45 miles of hiking through over 8,000 vertical feet and with a 35 pound pack for 4 full days. Now THAT was BEYOND ANYTHING I THOUGH I COULD EVER ACHIEVE. Moreso than the marathon.
It was GRUELING but SO REWARDING. I am still in awe that I accomplished that feat. I'd been doing mini urban hikes every weekend conditioning my muscles for this trip and even that was NO comparison to what this backpacking trip was. 8,000 feet. By the highest ridge which clocked at nearly 13,000 feet, my heart was pounding from the altitude SO HARD that I can feel it throbbing out of my elbows. It was insane. I had my moments of.. ehhhh, will I make it alive through this trip? But man, I sure did. And I completely surprised myself in the whole feat. I know I got it in me. I can do SO much more. I have so much internal strength that I completely shocked myself.
So that was last week. Now I'm back home, back to reality, back with internet and I realized I've been celebrating TOO much about my recent physical feats. So BACK on the WAGON.
All that physical exertions have kept my moods in stable conditions but my recent stress and anxiety is stemming from home and my current job situation. Its cutting into what's been an amazing month and I'm trying hard to keep my head up. All I can share is, I have super conflicting feelings and been trying to keep my boat steady.
Steady and in control. Isn't that always the challenge in the tumultuous and unpredictable sea of life?
Send good vibes my way. I sure need it!