Monday, July 01, 2013
I just finished the day out and am still in my range. I am glad about that. So today went well for the journey. We went to the doc for Tina and the doc set her an appointment up for a general surgeon in a couple of days. She tried to make it for tomorrow but couldn't. So it seems the doc thinks surgery is the only option. We asked if she needed to lose weight first but the guy we are seeing is supposed to have done a lot of these things on bigger people.
So I am thinking she is going to be having surgery soon. I am still getting used to that idea. But maybe it is for the best if she does have surgery soon. That way she can feel better quicker. But I am still worried because of her weight.
This whole thing is a real kick in the pants to get the weight off. I don't know what to think really...I just know that we need to get things going the right direction. No more slacking off.
My back seems to be getting worse and worse too. I can't sleep the whole night because of bad muscle aches. I scare people when they see me sleep apparently because I stop breathing. I stink because of the sweat between the rolls. This has to change.
For me I want this because I need it. I need to live life the way God made me to. I want to stop hurting all the time, stinking, and I want to sleep well. I need to find a way. For Tina I want this because I want her to feel the joy of not being limited. I want her to feel great in her skin and I want her to see herself as the sexy woman that I see her as.
It is time to get moving.