Not About the Weight
Monday, July 01, 2013
Just came back from my vacation home, which was a mixed bag in the health department. I managed to maintain my weight, but nutritionally I bombed. Physically, however, I was on fire. I had great daily workouts and two really good hikes. The most recent one, with Dom's Dad and MIL, was a BMX trail with very steep slopes and, at one point, 187 steps! That was Friday and I'm still feeling it.
I still get frustrated with my fat from time to time, but man, I just don't care about weight as much as I used to. The thrill of it for me is not the weight loss, but the accomplishment. I did 84 Ground Release Push-Ups the other day... in December, I could only do 13. I've learned that I am stronger than I figured, and can tolerate a lot more of the good pain than I figured. This progress hasn't really been about weight loss at all. I am way more interested in my next fitness venture, pushing that extra mile on a hike or whatever. There is no feeling in the world like it. And of course I love to see my muscles take shape.
So today is the first day officially back from vacation, and back to 100% clean eating. The clean eating hasn't been so hard, but I have been really hungry and calorie intake has been a real struggle. I came home from work today and just inhaled a bunch of stuff without thinking. I know it will take a while to adjust again. I think I have to banish granola from my house. It appears to be a trigger food.
Tonight I'm doing 50 assisted pull-ups and 50 hammers. On Sunday I'm planning a 5-6 mile hike with my Meetup Group to learn about edible plants. That should be interesting. It will also be the first time I walk that distance deliberately & not just because I'm lost! Keeping up with the rest of the group will also be a challenge.
My personal life is rather stressful right now. I'm looking for a new job since my organization has to eliminate my position in September. I already was offered a very good job but I couldn't take it because I could not commit to two years due to my husband's grad school situation... we'll (hopefully, dear god please) be moving next Summer for his internship.
I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourselves! I'd love to hear about your progress.