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Cannot believe I said, "No."


Monday, July 01, 2013

Last Thursday when I was at the concert series for work a colleague from a rehab center with whom we work volunteered to help. As we were packing up our breast cancer info & table, she told me she planned to help again on Sunday (last evening) and that maybe I should say home. I told her I would think about it. Driving home from the concert on Saturday evening, I decided I would go on Sunday so that a team member would be there. When I got up yesterday morning, the plan was to do some things at home & then head out to the concert to work. As the morning progressed, I became aware of nausea, a headache, & sleepiness. As I said on Saturday, I'm not eating in a healthy way because of running from the office to the concert in late afternoon, returning home after 9 PM. Thinking about going to the concert on Sunday evening just exacerbated everything. So I said, "No. I'm not going." I texted Mindy to ask if the offer still was valid. She said yes and I said, "Thanks. I'm NOT going to come tonight." Wow! Who was THAT woman who actually put herself first? By last night I was so grateful that I made the decision to stay home, though still feeling a little bit of guilt today. I'm still tired today, but not as much and am feeling courageous today.

LESSONS LEARNED:
1. Nothing collapsed because I wasn't there and trusted someone else to be.
2. It feels good to connect and to admit to how I was feeling physicially & emotionally.

*SPARK* RESTART:
1. Blogged today - you're reading it! :)
2. Posted food in the tracker; need to finish the day and then run analysis.
3. Visited 2 of my 3 teams this morning. Off to visit the other since I didn't get the daily challenge notification.

BLESSINGS:
1. Gracie & Katie, who are sticking by me when the a/c is running. :)
2. Journaling class - helping me to see who I really am
3. Good friends
4. Fun ride home with two of our survivors
5. The folks at South County Hospital's Breast Health Program
6. G-d, Who is really watering the earth here and hearing prayers to water the earth in the west
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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JENSHAINES 7/2/2013 4:59PM

    Oh my goodness, BRAVA!!!! What an important lesson. SO glad you made the choice that you did!

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PLAYFULLKITTY 7/2/2013 4:40AM

    WTG :) Hope you feel better soon. Getting back on track will definitely help.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 7/2/2013 12:16AM

    So glad that you said no and took care of yourself first for a change!!! AWESOME!!!
Loved your "Lessons Learned", "Spark Restart", and your "Blessings". Glad you are feeling better!!! I also hope you are able to relax and get some more rest. ENJOY a safe Fourth of July...
Continued blessings and hugs,
Helen


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GHOSTFLAMES 7/1/2013 7:31PM

    YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW YOU ARE GETTING IT.IT'S TIME TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! GO MAURI,GO MAURI!

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STORMTMB 7/1/2013 4:15PM

    Yeah!!! I'm so glad that you took Mindy up on the offer for you to be able to stay home. 3 cheers for you for saying no!! I'm so happy for you. Let that guilt go. Remember as women, we typically do more for others than for ourselves. It's okay to let your co-workers help out and give you more of that much-needed downtime. I'm sure that Gracie and Katie were glad to have more time with you too.

BTW - next time you get that lemon custard ice cream, send some to me. It's my favorite and I haven't found any place or any brand that comes close to what I get in my hometown.

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