Monday, July 01, 2013
So I tried doing this on my own, and I have stuck to counting calories and exercising and lost nothing. So I ended up falling off the wagon when it came to eating and still stuck to working out. Even though I was exercising I started to creep back up in the weight. So I have gained my 10lbs back. I believe half is water weight, but the whole idea that I went up that much on the scale really depressed me.
I had a heart to heart conversation with my mom. My mom then called me the following day and told me she would like for me to look into weight loss clinics and if they are not outrages then she and my dad would like to pay for me to do that for a little while until I am confident enough that I can finish on my own. I did lots of researching and I found one that I am going to try. I have a consultation on Wednesday. I am really nervous but excited at the same time. They are going to test my thyroid and other things to see if it is a medical thing that is keeping my from losing. They are also going to weigh me, measure me and do my body fat percentage. I hate people knowing my weight, but I hate being fat even more. Once they figure out my body type and if I have any health things in the way, they will then make a plan for me. I am really hoping this will help me!
I will not be on spark 100%, but I miss the support for when I am feeling down. I just hate feeling like a failure and I do not want to bring anyone down with my negativity when I complain about not losing lol.
I have missed a lot of you though!