Monday, July 01, 2013
Happy Canada Day, everyone!
This morning, I used my day off to go to the gym and finish day 1 of week six of my C25K progam (coolrunning). It went really well again and it was my longest distance of the training.
It's funny how when I start running for either 5 or 8 minutes at a time, I think that it's going to be such a long time, it's going to be boring :) It's not. I spend most of the time diving the time into sections - I'm done a minute, 1/4 done, 1/2 done, only 2 more minutes, that kind of thing.
The scale still isn't budging and that's frustrating me. All last week I was totally focused on the changes in my body and that felt great. Even if the scale didn't go down, there were results.
Yesterday? I don't know what caused it but I felt bloated and HUGE. I struggled to see the changes I knew I could see the day before. I stepped on the scale and it had moved. Up, not down.
Now, I know that there are certain things that cause weight gain in women. And I know that is part of this. It's making me crave salty foods, but I'm trying to stay strong on that. We did have chips and dip last night and fries the night before, but really that isn't enough to justify my weight going up when overall I'm doing pretty well.
The thing that stood out for me is how hormonal changes could affect how I felt about myself so significantly. In the space of a few short hours I went from a positive attitude, sure that I could see significant changes, to someone full of doubts, frustrated, angry and willing to give it all up for some chips and dip.
Yet, even through the crisis in body image, I still looked forward to my run today. I almost went and did it last night, but I'm having some tightness in my right foot and I figured I'd do better to rest it rather than run on one of my rest days.
I'm still struggling with cravings, but I'm pretty sure I can handle this and stay on track.
But, darnit, I really REALLY want that scale to start going down. I want to break through that imaginary boundary that I seem to be running up against.
My friends and I are planning far too many great runs together in the next few years starting with a 1/2 marathon in the fall of 2014. I can't wait.