Monday, July 01, 2013
Today is the anniversary of my car accident. I rolled my car at 75 mph and the door opened. I came part way out and the car rolled on me and proceeded to fling my body nearly 100 yards on the next roll. Needless to say, I broke a lot of bones including my pelvis, skull and vertebrae. I spent the next several months in the hospital and even more in a wheel chair. I had to learn to walk again.
This is how I gained weight the first time. Going from being a daily runner to an extremely sedentary lifestyle coupled with depression was the catalyst. I managed to lose all of the weight and maintain for many years.
Then nearly 3 years ago, my father died. My brother and I were raised by our dad. He was both mom and dad to me. Depression hit me like a ton of bricks again. I am not much of a drinker, I don't smoke or do drugs, so I coped with the grief using food.
I am finally back on the fitness and healthy eating path :-) I still have days where I don't want to do anything and I want to make myself feel better (however temporarily) with food. Each year around the anniversary of my accident I have myself a little pity party. It didn't last long this year, which I am proud of. I figure I am allowed to wallow once a year for a bit, since I don't give in to the poor me's any other day even though I live with constant chronic pain as a fall out of my injuries. The people in my life don't get stuck hearing about how I hurt all the time. Nobody wants that. I don't want to acknowledge it the pain and they don't want to hear about it.
So today, I have decided I am going to celebrate. I am going to celebrate the fact that I am alive to feel all of that pain. Celebrate the fact that my spinal cord didn't sever, no matter how close it was, and that I was able to walk again. Celebrate the family I still have left and let them know I love them. Celebrate the friends I have gathered in life and thank them for their friendship. Yes, today I celbrate! and then go to work, lol