I took time to watch The Secret yesterday and I was reminded of the importance of gratitude and how we must every day recognize the good in our lives - despite the challenges that present themselves.
I have been going through a difficult time at home, but despite it all, I do truly feel blessed in the support I have received from my workplace, from the services I have been accessing and from YOU my SP Friends!
Today marks the beginning of a new month and the 2nd half of 2013 and my plan is to move it on an upward swing in all aspects of my life. I plan on continuing my own challenge of decreasing the days involving alcohol in my life and increasing activities that ignite my passion for life.
I plan on making the most of the opportunities and moments presented to me - like my meeting up with my friend tomorrow (that I have not seen in 3 weeks)... thankfully his schedule will start to slow down July 8th so we may get to see a bit more of each other - a welcome and much needed thing in my life
Today we were invited to a friend's place for a BBQ - this couple has been an incredible source of support for me with my daughter who has been experiencing difficulties. In order for me to get back to work they are going to help me out for the first two weeks of July and have her over while I'm at work. Then the week of Jul 15 to 26th - I was fortunate enough to obtain some financial help to get my daughter into a gymnastics camp. I'll have to coordinate getting her to and from but alas - I will manage (thanks again to my wonderful workplace and their flexibility in allowing me to do some work from home). My hope is that towards the latter part of July - she may be doing well enough to perhaps be ok on her own a bit (as she is 12 after all). I still have some vacation time I can book off - and while we will be doing more of a staycation, I plan on exploring activities we can do in the area that don't involve cost.
My oldest is off to visit her grandmother in Florida tomorrow for most of the summer. This will give us all a 'break' and time to regain some footing and perhaps better perspective on things. It will be a nice vacation for my 16 year old and a time for me to spend one on one moments with my 12 year old as we work towards helping her heal.
I have secured long term counseling for her (starting July 9th) and we see the psychiatrist again on July 10th. I have the support line I can call if I need to (Parents Lifeline of Eastern Ontario) and of course... my own outlet of writing/blogging to help me through it all.
Things have been incredibly challenging of late... but despite it all I recognize it for the strength it continues to build in me.
I have been on 'Sick Bay' with BLC - but hope to be able to jump back in soon. My weight has not been a priority in all of this and with my stress leave I let go of my consistent workout routine which I plan to pick up again - starting TODAY!!
To all who have commented, sent goodies and been there ... while I may not have replied to each individually, I am utterly touched and incredible grateful!!
And Happy Canada Day to all my fellow Canadian Spark Friends!!