Monday, July 01, 2013
I have a big one, a really big one coming up and I have been, oh, so aware the last couple of weeks as my weight approaches healthy. No you can't find it on a chart somewhere and it's my own personal milestone. In 2004 I had a serious car accident that broke my neck in the same place Christopher Reeves (superman) broke his. Mine didn't move just cracked C-2. Also compression fracture of T-11+12, oh ya and the car landed upside down on my left arm. So I have a nail through the bone in my left arm that was crushed with 4 screws holding it in place.
Pain yes, I have learned to live with pain. Running/walking has made me think of it a lot because when I move or roll at night the tightness and discomfort in my back awakens me. I am literally whipped at the end of the day after making myself do all day. It is the reason I take 10 mg sleep meds which I have cut in half recently on my own. I may have to weigh do I take some kind of pain med or tylonol against a whole zolpidem. I have to tell you I can DO so much more since the surgery and sometimes even feel like myself energy wise during the day. Some day's more than others.
Back to the milestone. In 2004 when I had the accident I weighed 167 lbs. I had lost from my then all time high of 182. All my life I have had to work to not be overweight, then around age 35, I started inching up so by my accident I was already struggling. During this time I went to the Y regularly and I worked with a personal trainer so while my weight was up I was healthy, strong, and looked in my eyes presentable. I walked, never run, 3 miles regularly without the effort it takes now. Today for the first time the scale tipped under 170. I was 169.75 and felt the emotions swirl so I know it will be a big deal when I hit 167. The weight I was at when this upward drive to overtly obese began. My husband feels bad because I was still trying to diet while recovering from this accident and he wanted me to eat for nutrition to heal. He has said I wish" I never encouraged you to get off your diet," blaming himself. I however have never blamed him understanding this was my body that got out of control especially with early menopause because of the accident. It will be one happy day not just for me but him too, to return to the pre car accident weight and begin surpassing this milestone. Yes my picture above is a pre-accident weight. I have few if any pictures of post car accident weights. They are NOT taken by me or with my knowledge as I avoid the camera mostly by being the one taking pictures. I will have to have a new one made when I reach this milestone :)
Wow, it just makes Monday morning better to begin on such a high note! Have a great day everyone, reaching for, meeting, and surpassing your milestones.