Monday, July 01, 2013
I suppose I have ISSUES. *sigh* Not a news flash.
Anyway, I went to church yesterday morning and had plans to stay for lunch and maybe stay to watch The Life of Pi.
I came early, got myself a seat, placed my purse on the seat next to me, and read until the service started.
After the service started a youngish man took the seat to the right of me.
Now I thought I had clearly been sending off 'don't sit next to me' vibes.
Perhaps not strongly enough.
Anyway, he had a sort of pungent scent and only kind of sort of interfered with my enjoyment of the service. I didn't really look him in the eye but I could smell him.
I admit I took notes during the service and even texted on my phone. Anything to try and put some psychological inches between him and I.
Yes. I do this ridiculous stuff on purpose. (I actually think all of us sit where we sit and arrange our belongings and sit in a certain way for a reason but .... can't speak for other people directly at the moment.)
That pungent man left as soon as the lesson was over. I saw him come back in on the upper level and take his seat up there.
Now I do go to church for fellowship but it's not really something I'm incredibly receptive to.
To be quite honest, me being able to sit in a room full of people without getting really anxious is a step ahead in itself. Really. I don't talk about it much but I am coming out of a fear of groups of people. I am always coming out of that - moving away from it - and hopefully making small steps.
I suppose I wasn't prepared for a pungent man to sit right next to me.
I ate my lunch and went home.
I took notes and know it was a great lesson. I just don't recall it now because I was distracted.