Monday, July 01, 2013
I am really greteful for the days I have gotten wothout overeating - but I am also hungry! I probably need to add an extra small meal at night, and I could do it within a sensiblde calorie range but I am scared of doing it since it will tempt me to eat more afterwards.
Yesterday lunch was from the food bag:
Plaice, crumbed and fried with potatoes, spinach, carrots and a "curry cream" sauce, really nice.
The amount was enough to give me and daughter lunch and there was a leftover for me to have as dinner - a little small but enough I thought...daughter had mac-and-cheese. Then she had microwave popcorn and I couldn´t resist but had maybe 4 dl of it before I was able to stop...and the temptation to make another bag was really hard but I had an apple instead before I went to bed. So, popcorna and apple outside plan - calorie wise it is more than ok, the danger lies in my sick mind that starts to murmur "who are you kidding, you can´t stay "clean" so just give up and binge ..." not this hour!
Yesterday was also the day when we are not going to have a show for some days ahead - meaning that we participaters can eat all the cakes and muffins that are left in the café as they are going to throw it away otherwise. Daugher had some but I stayed away - knowing that had I taken "just a little piece" of one of the cakes, I had gone berserk later and do some insane foodshopping as we had to go to the store for milk... I stayed away and I sent daughter to buy herself an icecream while I was shopping - I had one lick of hers (it was "strawberry cheesecake") but as I did not stand beside her at the counter I did not have to brace myself against the impulse of having one too "just this once..."