Sunday, June 30, 2013
Tomorrow, I will travel for work to Phoenix. I'll be there until Wednesday night when I fly back to enjoy the 4th of July. I've already traveled to Phoenix a couple of weeks ago, and I'll be back in Phoenix in two weeks.
While there are times I love the travel, it also wears on me. I also found myself homesick. And when I am in Phoenix or elsewhere, I find myself pounding the pavement to Mrs. Fields or the bakery section in Walmart or Albertson's or chowing down on huge meals at restaurants.
I am an Emotional Eater. When I am sad, lonely, upset, or stressed, I eat. I don't know if I ever explicitly tell myself this, but I definitely would tell myself implicitly that eating some fattening food will make me feel better.
But it doesn't.
Eating when I am any of those things is me ignoring the problem. It won't make me better - it will make me WORSE. I'll gain weight. I'll be unhealthy. And more importantly, I will feel LOADS of guilt when I am done eating and realize what I've done.
Instead of turning to food when I am sad or upset or lonely, I need to be willing to admit my feelings, unashamed of what is affecting me. It is OK to be sad. It is OK to be lonely. What isn't OK is to ignore these problems.
The most recent times I've traveled, I've felt the loneliness. I've felt the stress. But instead of saying, "I need to get a cookie", I said, "I'm sad" or "I'm lonely". And I dealt with the emotions instead of hiding behind food. It wasn't fun, but I didn't have the guilt of eating foods that were bad for me, nor the guilt of knowing what I did to my body.
Facing your problems is tough. I'd much rather pretend they don't exist. But my health is more important. So I recognize how I need to face my emotions instead of running from them. And my body is VERY grateful!