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Sunday, June 30, 2013

So my first week of being healthy and active went fantastic! I lost 2 pounds! I can't remember the last time that happened! Today alone I did a small cardio workout for 15 minutes and walked just over 2 miles around my neighborhood. I feel so wonderful and so full of life, just in this past week! Somehow this time just feels different. Life is all about trying and failing and trying again. I have tried and failed to get healthy and lose weight so many times, and this time it already feels like a success. I realize that it's not just about losing weight and looking good. This time around I want different things. But mostly, I want to be STRONG. I want to be stronger physically, and mentally. I want to be able to do a pull up, a full sit-up. I want to be able to hoist myself up on the kitchen counter. I just want to be the strong person that is trying to push her way up and out. I want to be able to wake up everyday and face the challenges that I know will come, because that's life. I'm learning that you can't always control what happens in the world, but you can control how you react to it. And I can control certain aspects in MY world, like what kind of food I put into my body everyday and what kind of exercise I do that day. I have had so many things thrown at me, everything from debt, to having lost my mom to a heart attack when she was 55, to having major surgery that could affect my chances of having children one day. So many things that just have knocked me down, but I still managed to get back up. My weight has been an ongoing, vicious cycle that continually tells me that I can't. Well, I can and I will. I am 27 years old and I want to start living my life. I want to meet somebody and have a family. And having a family is going to be hard enough, I don't need my weight holding me back in that aspect, either. I'm doing this for me, to make myself happy and healthy. Like I said, the weight loss will be great and the weight will come off when it comes off. It's not a race. It's about me learning how to treat my body good and be the best, STRONGEST person that I can be, and that I know I am inside. There's a small flame in me that sometimes taps me on the shoulder and says, you know, you could be an athlete one day, if you really work at it. I want that small flame to turn into an inferno. So, that's my plan and for the first time in a very long time, I'm beliving that it's possible. Until next time, kids. :)
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