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My Heart is Broken

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Ive been MIA for a year now. had another cancer scare. im really looking into removing my breast and then getting reconstruction. this roller coaster ride every 6 months is killing me.

shortly after my scare my niece age 43 (my favorite) landed in hospital this past January and to find out she had stage 4 cancer of the hip and with further examination it happened it had spread all over her body. she passed away this last April. I was devastated ...i'm still struggling with her loss. im fighting depression. don't want to go to that dark place. so its really been hard for me to focus on anything. being an emotional eater like I am im sad to say I've gained back all my weight lost. 67 pounds :-( I could kick myself in the butt. im so angry im ready to begin again. today is my first day. I need all the encouragement I can get. Prayers needed. I am posting a new challenge to lose 10 pounds in July come and join me..i need the encouragement, the support of all my spark friends. the link is below.
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    Sorry for your loss last April. It is hard to focus when you go through so much. I have had lots of difficulty when others have died or been ill. Hard to take it. I was depressed enough when my mom died (30 years ago) that I should have gone to the Dr. I will remember you in my prayers.
    1593 days ago
  • STORMY96
    thank you all from the bottom of my heart for ur warm wishes and support. this means so much to me. gets me thru another day. Love my sparkfamily.
    1692 days ago
  • LINDA!
    It is so sad about your niece. You take care of yourself. Remember it is one day at a time. emoticon
    1694 days ago
    emoticon emoticon I am here to support you again, all the way! You will overcome, so sorry for your loss. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    1694 days ago
  • MAEST35
    I understand. It was my father's death in 2011 that derailed my weight loss efforts and made me trash my diet and exercise habits I'd just formed. Depression and anxiety are the enemies of our journey to being healthy, so please take it one day at a time.

    I am glad that you are well, and that you are back with us. We all go through ups and downs, but I am here for you as a SparkFriend. You can do it; we will do it together.
    1694 days ago
  • STORMY96
    Hey Lorraine..glad to see u joining me..lets emoticon get this done girl..
    1695 days ago
  • NEWME0519
    Hi Luisa,

    Welcome, glad to see that you're back! I'm here and ready to join in the 10 pound challenge!

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    1695 days ago
  • STORMY96
    thanks joolie..this is my third scare and then my niece its been a traumatic 6 months. only thing that's gonna get me thru is God, my family, and all the support of my sparkfamily... thanks for ur support!
    1695 days ago
    Oh, Stormy! I'm so sorry! I remember the scare you had a couple of years ago, and I know that's never easy. When I went in for my biopsy, I was terrified. Luckily it never turned into anything, but I always have anxiety when I go to gyno now.

    I'm sorry for you loss. It's never easy to lose someone that you're close to, especially someone that is family.

    You'll get through this, and your team will be by your side the entire way.
    1695 days ago
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