Sunday, June 30, 2013
It has been tough to get back on track this time.
Yesterday, I almost made it.But last night came along and found me hungry. I chose a couple hard boiled eggs and some light cheese, so at least, it was not junky stuff and was stuff that wouldnt increase my blood sugars long term.
I have thought a lot about what caused this last episode when I had been doing so well.
I am thinking now, with my head cleared of junk, that it was the news from my surgeon that my surgery for my legs is at least 2 - 3 years away. I had so hoped to be able to go walking this summer with my baby great nephew and neice. I guess that is flown out the window now.
Also, was a talk I had with one of my friends. She had started waiting for surgery to fuse her foot, about the same time I started waiting. She had her surgery almost 2 weeks ago now.
She had been told that she would be in the hospital probably 4 days....now... they are not sure when they will let her out.
Her words to me, get the weight off!
She says her weight is why they won't let her out. It is hindering her in big ways, from movements to get out of bed to pushing herself in a wheelchair because she is too heavy for crutches and is not allowed to put weight on her foot.
Which brought me back to my last discussion with the surgeon when I was in the city last fall. He told me then to get the weight off, to make it easier on myself.
And I have been trying! In a very big way. But it is slow, real slow. Because of the days when my blood sugar crashes and I have to compensate for that.
I have talked to the nutritionist about how to lose weight when you have diabetes and cannot do the exercise with out tremendous pains, which are the reasons in the first place for the surgery and the need to lose weight. She had nothing for me, no advice.
So I have worked out a way, and it does work, sort of. I have very tight control of my diabetes and I cut very close to my food allowances. Sometimes too close, as I have more crashes, but the weight is coming down.
I have cut out a lot of higher calorie foods though not food groups. But I have been doing that all along for several years, as I follow the glycemic index on foods. I just swap foods down, avoiding the higher glycemic numbered foods. It works well for me, as most of the foods on the lower end of the index are the ones I prefer to eat anyways ( that I was eating naturally before going on the glycemic index a few years ago) It is also how I lost a lot of weight years ago, combined with walking, before diabetes and the insulin that helped me regain weight.
Things beyond control.I only started losing weight when I proved to omy doctor that the insulin was causing me all the problems I was having with allergic reactions and weight gain. So now I am back on oral meds. Again this is where the glycemic index helps as you can control the blood sugars rising better when you know the foods with the lower numbers,
So far today, I am on track. It is early yet..I admit to clock watching today, as I do want to eat. I know I have to get back on track, I know I have to lose this weight before I get the call. I know I have a lot of pressure that I admit I put on myself.
But perhaps that Is why the fates or perhaps God, gave me the call of a 2-3 year wait, to give me time to get the weight off. Though I think I am better with a closer deadline, it is too easy to do as I just did, fall off the wagon. Too easy to say "oh, it is okay for this week, as I have a lot of time to get it off." Not! It did not arrive on my body over night, so it is gonna take some time to get it off again.
At least I think I have that all figured out.
Have a great day everyone