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getting back on track..


Sunday, June 30, 2013

It has been tough to get back on track this time.

Yesterday, I almost made it.But last night came along and found me hungry. I chose a couple hard boiled eggs and some light cheese, so at least, it was not junky stuff and was stuff that wouldnt increase my blood sugars long term.

I have thought a lot about what caused this last episode when I had been doing so well.

I am thinking now, with my head cleared of junk, that it was the news from my surgeon that my surgery for my legs is at least 2 - 3 years away. I had so hoped to be able to go walking this summer with my baby great nephew and neice. I guess that is flown out the window now.

Also, was a talk I had with one of my friends. She had started waiting for surgery to fuse her foot, about the same time I started waiting. She had her surgery almost 2 weeks ago now.

She had been told that she would be in the hospital probably 4 days....now... they are not sure when they will let her out.

Her words to me, get the weight off!

She says her weight is why they won't let her out. It is hindering her in big ways, from movements to get out of bed to pushing herself in a wheelchair because she is too heavy for crutches and is not allowed to put weight on her foot.

Which brought me back to my last discussion with the surgeon when I was in the city last fall. He told me then to get the weight off, to make it easier on myself.

And I have been trying! In a very big way. But it is slow, real slow. Because of the days when my blood sugar crashes and I have to compensate for that.

I have talked to the nutritionist about how to lose weight when you have diabetes and cannot do the exercise with out tremendous pains, which are the reasons in the first place for the surgery and the need to lose weight. She had nothing for me, no advice.

So I have worked out a way, and it does work, sort of. I have very tight control of my diabetes and I cut very close to my food allowances. Sometimes too close, as I have more crashes, but the weight is coming down.

I have cut out a lot of higher calorie foods though not food groups. But I have been doing that all along for several years, as I follow the glycemic index on foods. I just swap foods down, avoiding the higher glycemic numbered foods. It works well for me, as most of the foods on the lower end of the index are the ones I prefer to eat anyways ( that I was eating naturally before going on the glycemic index a few years ago) It is also how I lost a lot of weight years ago, combined with walking, before diabetes and the insulin that helped me regain weight.

Things beyond control.I only started losing weight when I proved to omy doctor that the insulin was causing me all the problems I was having with allergic reactions and weight gain. So now I am back on oral meds. Again this is where the glycemic index helps as you can control the blood sugars rising better when you know the foods with the lower numbers,

So far today, I am on track. It is early yet..I admit to clock watching today, as I do want to eat. I know I have to get back on track, I know I have to lose this weight before I get the call. I know I have a lot of pressure that I admit I put on myself.

But perhaps that Is why the fates or perhaps God, gave me the call of a 2-3 year wait, to give me time to get the weight off. Though I think I am better with a closer deadline, it is too easy to do as I just did, fall off the wagon. Too easy to say "oh, it is okay for this week, as I have a lot of time to get it off." Not! It did not arrive on my body over night, so it is gonna take some time to get it off again.

sigh

At least I think I have that all figured out.

Have a great day everyone
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SPIRITUALBEAR 7/4/2013 3:14PM

    no probs lila! Thanks for stopping bby!

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SLIMLILA 7/4/2013 1:28PM

    OMG, how sad is that 2-3 yrs. wait...

heading out, sorry gotta remember to get back to you later....

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SPIRITUALBEAR 7/3/2013 9:23AM

    Thanks Amy, and you are right! Thats all there is to do right now, get as healthy as I can and shed as much weight as I can.
take care , god bless

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AMYTRIPP 7/3/2013 9:22AM

    I'm so sorry to hear the surgery is so far away. I guess you really will just have to focus on getting into the best shape you can beforehand.

Grrrr on that nutritionist!!

I'm glad to hear you're getting back on track.

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SPIRITUALBEAR 6/30/2013 6:09PM

    Yes Ima. I came to that conclusion myself though as I said, it does make it easier to just oh well it wont matter for this week and that could get to be a bad habit.

The surgery is not postponed, that is how long the wait list is. And it can get longer as emergency surgeries bump in ahead of everyone, of course.So it sis unlikely to be here sooner than the prediction and morethan likely will be farther away than the prediction.

I have already lived with the pains for 15 years, what is a few more years........though I do hope it is before the health risks make it an impossibilty for me. Only time will be able to tell me that answer.

Thanks for your kind words my friend, god bless

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IMAVISION 6/30/2013 5:12PM

    I think you have things figured out very well, Bear, & I congratulate you on not allowing the decision to get you derailed from your over all goal. An initial slip is certainly to be forgiven, as you get back on path & stay the course.

I view the wait differently - in that the years seem to fly by for this gal. Wasn't it "just yesterday" that we were waiting for the turn-of-this-century? And here we are halfway through 2013!!! emoticon

Still, two to three years seems a mighty long time to have to wait for surgery that would elevate pain. The decision to put off the surgery has me believing that the one(s) who made that decision are not very compassionate.

I understand how something can look so very, very far off & one might get the feeling that they have so much time to do whatever is necessary before the event. That happens to me with getting gifts & cards out in a timely fashion. I am great at remembering special dates months before; however, most generally, it feels like a mad last minute scramble to get things posted in a timely fashion. emoticon

Please, go at your program as if the surgery were to be in six months, Bear. And when that first six months is up - then one more time renew your efforts, as if the surgery were to be in the next six months. And so on until you have gotten the call to say that the surgery has been scheduled for a definite date. I believe you will be happy that you used the time as wisely as possible.

Who knows - the surgery could well be changed to a much earlier time & then you will have done your level best all along - not putting anything off because of the seemingly long wait.

God bless!

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SPIRITUALBEAR 6/30/2013 4:44PM

    emoticon thanks hon, i appreciate it

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DSBRIDE 6/30/2013 3:50PM

    I think a 2-3 year wait is ridiculous! Besides the physical pain there is a lot of mental pain in waiting so long. Another one of life's injustices! I'm here for you, anytime!

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SPIRITUALBEAR 6/30/2013 3:36PM

    I did not realize it would be that long a wait for this surgery either... I just found out on wednesday afternoon after waiting since December to hear from the surgeon.

I pray success for you to get enough strength back to walk without your cane. I know what you mean about thinking about it every day...Good luck

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LGAR519 6/30/2013 2:44PM

    I'm so sorry. I didn't realize you had a 2 to 3 year wait for your surgery. I can see how it would be hard to keep your eyes on your weight loss goal. Time has a way of getting away from us. And we tend to think we have plenty of time so it becomes a viscious cycle. Being a bad diabetic doesn't help matters any. All any of us can do is try to do the best we can. And try to keep good thoughts of losing, successful surgery, rehab and walking once again, uppermost in our minds.
My long term goal is to walk without this cane. I think about it every day!!


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