Renewed Awareness and Reasonable Goals
Sunday, June 30, 2013
A year and a half ago, I became a Zumba instructor, and after four months of teaching class three times a week, I was a comfortable, fit weight and able to eat freely for the first time in my life without gaining weight. I ate healthfully, but I certainly did not deny myself. If I wanted something, I ate it, and I did not gain weight. It was an incredible feeling. I recently finished grad school and took a job teaching high school. I was very excited to be back in the classroom (I taught for years before grad school), but decided to wait on applying for Zumba instructor jobs, not wanting to overburden myself before I knew how much work my teaching load would be. Although I joined a great gym and have been working out relatively consistently, I have also continued to eat in volumes that only a Zumba instructor can! The result: the seemingly inevitable 10-15 lb weight gain that seems to creep up whenever I teach high school full-time. Now that the first year at a new school has finally come to a close, I am getting married in 40 days, and feeling a bit sluggish and heavy. Clearly, crash diets, or even too stringent goals never work for me, so I have set a reasonable goal not for the wedding, but for months later.
By the wedding, maybe I will have lost 5-6 pounds. However more importantly, I hope to reestablish the daily check ins, workouts, and calorie entrance that made my first weight loss with spark people a few years back such a success. I worked hard, felt healthy, and consistently lost weight. I felt great. As soon as I got cocky and thought I could handle it on my own without charting my progress, the weight rapidly reappeared. I am going to reestablish this pattern as the norm for me. Entering food and calories is indeed tedious, but the pay-off is worth it. I also want to bypass the 'wedding weight goal' pressure, which with it, implies that one can and should let it all hang out after the big day. Rather, I'd like the big day to just be a start. I acknowledge the reality of my busy life and have to release the ego and pressures fueled by the wedding industrial complex that declares that you should weigh the least and be the most toned, on your wedding day. Rather, I'd like to let that special day be the first high point in a number of celebrations of my own commitment to health.
I am getting married later than some, and I am excited about trying to have a baby sooner rather than later. I want to be in optimal physical condition in order to conceive, carry a baby comfortably, and guarantee the baby's health. I want to boost my energy for my demanding job and life. I want to regain the awareness that I had when my meals felt balanced, veg-heavy, and clear plans to get the most out of my daily workout.
I'm excited to be efficient again! Let's go!