Sunday, June 30, 2013
I have to be truthful and say I never thought I'd see this day.
That's not to say I didn't think I could lose that much weight...I'd done that part many times before. The difference is the way I lost it, and the fact that I never plan to gain it again!
This time, there's been a change in my way of thinking. This time I lost it slowly and steadily. This time I know I can keep it off, because my outlook on weight loss has made a radical about face.
Almost every time I've lost weight in the past, I did it without doing any exercise. I had seen friends lose weight while exercising, and if they skipped a week of exercise they would gain a lot back, because they still ate the same amount.
In my skewed way of thinking, I blamed the exercise. I figured if I could lose the weight without doing exercise, it should stay off. Of course that didn't happen! It might have taken a little longer to come back on me, but every pound still came back, and brought some friends with it.
Then there was the year I joined a Diet-A-Thon and lost weight to raise money for a charity. Since there was a time limit on that, and I wanted to lose as much as possible, I bought an exercise bike to help...along with cutting my food intake as much as possible. I lost so much weight, I even won a prize. (a one year membership to a gym - which I didn't use)
That time, I actually kept most of the weight off for several years, till I was put on steroids for allergies, and gained 100 pounds in a year. When I complained to the doctor about all the weight I was gaining, his answer was, "Well, would you rather be sick or fat?" Needless to say, I actually didn't want to be either!
Then there was the time I lost weight doing the Weigh Down Workshop. They stress losing weight without doing exercise, so that was right up my alley. The pounds were melting off so fast, I was at the thrift store almost every week buying pants that wouldn't fall off. I can't remember how much I lost, but it was very noticeable. But, once again, I didn't change my way of thinking, and every pound was back within a year or two...with some cousins this time!
I had basically given up on weight loss. I figured I was just meant to be a big woman. (read FAT)
If it hadn't been for my new pain management doctor insisting I lose weight to help my Fibromyalgia pain, I wouldn't be here now. My GP never mentioned my weight, my Cardiologist didn't mention my weight, and my previous pain management doctor hadn't mentioned my weight.
I thank God for my new PM doctor, and I thank God for guiding me to do a web search which brought up SparkPeople.
I now have a completely different attitude concerning exercise. I now know this has to be a new way of living...not a diet. With Gods help, I will one day be at my goal weight, and stay there (within a few pounds) for the rest of my life!