Saturday, June 29, 2013
Daughter and me discussed the coming weeks yesterday - I donīt want her to be in front of the television as soon as we are not in the theatre so I asked her what she thought was reasonable and then we agreed on "mediafree" times when we will not watch teve, be on computer or phone...I think it will be harder for me because I tend to be on the computer when I have no energy and just want to hang around....
But then she cleaned her room and I baked bread and made our meal:
spaghetti with meatsauce AND the last of the carrot salad I had left. BUT - how small a serving is! In the evening when we came home I was really hungry and doubled that serving... could do so easily inside my calorie limit.
I was hungry and stressed because we had to cancel theatre -nobody came... That has not ever happened before so we did have a crisis meeting and I discovered that our leader is like me a very emotional person, she panicked and wanted to shut down the whole summer show... I used to be like that when I had my paper every other day I would panic and tell my coworkers that we would have to quit... and it took almost a year before I realised that the poor things believed me and was worried... so I stopped and tried to take those feelings out of the office and talk with friends that would not be affected by my decisions...
Daughter was miserable, until I told her that I thought it wouldnīt be as bad as our leader said - and it will not. But we decided to cancel three shows next week and use the time to sell tickets instead.
Since I stay on my food plan and eat well I feel positive in spite of the theatre happenings . I do have the feeling of the serenity prayer and even though I felt sort of guilty yesterday it was me who wanted us to concentrate many shows on a short time (my coworker told me on the way home that I was wrong, this was something our leader had been wanting to try for years) But then again I always feel guilty when something I am involved in dos not progress as it should, this is something I have to be aware of and try to deal with because it sets me off eating and feeling bad.
Went to bed early, did not want to stay up and get the cravings...my resistance power yesterday was not that strong