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I miss mom...

Saturday, June 29, 2013

It is so quiet in the house right now. I talked to mom for about maybe ten minutes total today and she told me that she went to the hospital and had to get a blood transfusion done.

She sounded tired when she called.

Today I have done the dishes I had left to soak last night and also did the laundry.

Made dinner of a morning star farms burger without bread along with green beans, carrots and stewed tomatoes.

Snack after dinner was a pack of skinny cow dreamy clusters.

I am running low on food for the rest of the month as well as money and I will not get my social security payment into the bank until Wednesday and I get paid from work on Thursday.

I miss not having mom with me here in the house. It is so lonely at home without her here.

Right now she would be asleep on the couch upstairs and I would be asleep on the loveseat across from her or at the very least trying to read a book while stretched out on the love seat.

I also feel horrible knowing that she is not eating anything at all as she says that due to her problems with her esophagus...she cannot eat.

I just want to cry right now...I miss her so is like a part of me has died all over again.

It is just like I am an orphan.

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    So sorry Lance, it is very hard to have such a huge change in your life. I agree that it would be good if you could get some activities with other people, so you have more of a support network. Either through church, or through a book club or other activity that you enjoy, or a community gym. And your mom needs you too! emoticon
    1724 days ago
    Please accept my criticim constructively. I work with lots of people down on their luck. You need to get off the pitty pot and find positive solutions to all your problems. The advice previously offered is excellent. Go see your Mom and show her how much you love her. As far as food, go to the dollar tree and buy a $1 bag of beans and a $1 bag of rice and eat for several weeks. Many people live this way long term. I was raised to live this way and it gave me survival skills. I know how to manage on a few bucks.

    You can do this! Hope you can turn that energy used on pitty in to positive energy to do something about your life situation that is productive. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1725 days ago
    Part of the problem is that you have lived like a shut in for so long and now it has caught up with you. I have mentioned before to start looking around for other opportunities for you to get out of that house. Check out bus take you places. Get involved in a church. Your girl friend obviously is because of her father. I am sure they have activities you could participate in.

    Instead of spending money on all those books you buy...get a library card and go read IN THE LIBRARY. It gets you out and in more contact with ppl.

    Join a gym.......

    Communities have things going on all the time. Do you have concerts in the park? Car shows? A near by park? Something to get you outside.

    I do feel bad for you Lance....I do. It really must be lonely. I know that you all were not totally prepared for this to happen this time ..yes...but you need to start thinking for yourself and do things. You do.

    I know it can be scary...and a tad lonely to get out of your comfort zone..but...once you will be easier and more rewarding.
    1725 days ago
  • FISHER011
    emoticon Go see her & see if the place she is at will let you spend the night there with her emoticon Some places do have accomadations for family, most times it's a chair that is like a recliner & you sleep in that in her room. Ask.
    Also, You know that if you are missing her, she is feeling the same & missing you!
    You are a wonderful Son Lance. emoticon
    1726 days ago
    I'm here for you. emoticon
    1726 days ago
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