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Struggling a little, still hanging on :/

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Yesterday was another not-so-great day. No exercise, and overate at dinnertime. Drank the water! My overeating last night was nowhere in the range of what the seafood dinner was the other day, though. My charts on the daily feedback are going to look like a roller coaster!

See, the problem is that I seem to *snap* sometimes and suddenly I don't care whatsoever about tracking, or healthy goals, or anything. It just gets discarded. I know that sounds kind of like I'm not holding myself accountable. In the moment though, I don't think about accountability. I know in the back of my mind that I'll feel bad about it later, and it doesn't change anything!! This can lead to giving up completely if I'm not careful, it has before. So, I'm admitting to a little struggling! I can't hide it or it will lead to more. I even told my bf about it this morning.

When I woke up this morning I really had to pep-talk myself into believing I can do better today, and into wanting to keep going. Just for today... I can work on making good choices. That really changed the tone in my mind. That it's just one day. So, today is going well. I dug out a workout video I haven't done in a long time, and did it. 45 minutes later, I felt good! Yay! So far, eating is right on track. I will finish today strong!!
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    1695 days ago

    “Don’t dwell on what went wrong. Instead, focus on what to do next. Spend your energies on moving forward.” ~Denis Waitley

    “It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves.” ~Sir Edmund Hillary

    Wanting and doing are not the same things. Don't say you want something. DO what's necessary to get what you want.
    Just keep going never give up I had to have the same chat with my self so remember you are not alone in the rocky hike. emoticon emoticon

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    1695 days ago
    I know exactly what you're talking about in the paragraph that you mention that you snap.
    I haven't given up but I'm very frustrated with myself and can't understand why I don't seem to care. I will try your method and give myself a good pep talk in the morning.
    emoticon Emily emoticon job and emoticon on putting that evil little imp in it's place.
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    1695 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    The longer you go the less those moments happen!
    1695 days ago
  • KAT321123
    I agree with the mental frame you took of "just today" -- it can really help to just focus on the moment and the day so you don't get overwhelmed. One step and one day at a time =)

    Try to remember that you deserve your success and want your success! Good luck.

    Edited to add: I just looked at your Page and noticed you're from about 45 minutes from my home town! Hello, fellow NHite! =)
    1695 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/29/2013 4:58:08 PM
    We all go through those up and down days. That's why it's so important to make changes that we can live with over the long haul. If we feel deprived all the time, we'll quit. (You're absolutely right about that!)

    There's light at the end of the tunnel, Emily! Once you reach your goal, you'll have more calories available to you. Until then, if the calories available when you're losing seem too small, take a small break and try to maintain (NOT gain) where you are until you can gather the motivation to continue the journey. Do still track food and exercise honestly so you have data to help you later.

    You've done well today! Thanks for your honesty. That kind of transparency helps other people who are also struggling. Great job talking to yourself and getting your motivation back! You can do this!
    1695 days ago
    Good for you, i wish I had your willpower!!!
    1695 days ago
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