Saturday, June 29, 2013
Tomorrow I am throwing my last graduation party. It will be officially known that all my children have moved on into the next phase of their lives. High School drama will be a thing of the past and now the world of college and young adulthood looms ahead. It's sort of bittersweet for me. I joke with my friends and say I'm going to have an empty nest party come September but really I know that I will be very sad to not have them ride with me to school every morning like they have done for the past 13 years. It was kinda cool that I go walk into the cafeteria during lunch and say hello to my girls if I felt the need. I will be odd not to have, especially my youngest, pop into my room with her friends throughout the day because she needs lunch money, or a permission slip signed. ****SIGH**** Yes it is bittersweet. What I really wonder though is did I teach my girls well along the way? Have I shown them how to be a strong independent woman? Have I given them any guidance in being healthy? I remember someone telling me once that you do the best you can and then you let them go and pray that they remembered what you tried to instill in them. With my older two daughters they have shown me that they can step up and "get it done" when they need too. I am sure that my youngest will do that also. I guess it's just scary for ME to let them go. Soooooo...I think tomorrow I will have moments where I will hold back some tears... but I also know that I will celebrate with my family and friends. I think we'll also celebrate the future and what it will hold for my newest graduate and my older two also. *Giggle* I just had a wonderful thought! I can now try out all those wonderful recipes that have all the food my youngest hated to eat..lol... oh there is a bright spot in the clouds.