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Motivation - Where art thou?

Saturday, June 29, 2013

I have lost all motivation. I don't know where it is.... Maybe its hidden between the walls of sleep, a place that I won't be at until Monday or Tuesday. Maybe the wall of anxiety has removed it from my grasp.

I have lost the excitement of exercising and working out. I am falling into food ruts and grabbing what is easy because survival right now feels about the best I can do.

I want to be happy and excited and jump into my day again. The last six weeks I have had a baby that screams.... all day, and all night. It isn't her fault, bless her... but the ultimate result is a pattern like this...

Home from work at 5, make dinner, eat with kids (baby screaming the entire hour). Hold baby and try to do any trick so baby doesn't cry... baby fed and in bed at 8
baby awake at 930
1 am
215 am
330 am
500 am
620 am

Here it is 630 and she has woken up the other five children. Sigh.

Maybe when she goes to her new home on Monday, I may find my motivation again. I need some super good motivation from the motivation fairy... Think I will peruse some articles of where I want to be.

I need this. I have given up myself so many times in my history and I refuse to do it anymore. I may have only .02% of my motivation but its there kicking somewhere. I can feel it budding and stirring around, grasping for air.

Maybe that's just me wanting a nap. Is it reasonable to take a nap at 7 am?
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    I can more than understand you are feeling way over stressed with a crying baby. I think a nap is needed and hope you will find that soon.
    Motivation is a tricky thing. I think that since with everything you are still here, it is still there within you. I think looking up some articles is one good way. I recently tried SP Coach and that does help with keeping you motivated and think about the right things. Keep looking and you will find it.
    Every year I do a motivational poster board and hang it where I can see it often and it helps me remember what I am working toward.

    Lots of hugs
    1668 days ago
    I'm sorry your struggling. I hope it makes you feel better to know that we ALL do. You're tired, your defenses are down, you feel desperate for a minute to take care of you - all of that can be VERY overwhelming.

    Here's the thing about when you lose your motivation. It's in you, it just needs to be awakened again and to do that you need VICTORIES. Each time you avoid some grab-n-go food, VICTORY! Each time you do 10 bathroom squats when you go in there, VICTORY! You have find little things that will give you some + marks in the WIN column. It will come, just don't go down in a flaming mess of oooey gooey treats and sitting on the couch. =)

    Who is gonna take care of you? =)

    We're ALL here for you. Hang in there, Let it go. This too shall pass. =)

    One of my favorite "blah" songs for a good pick me up!


    First line: Oh you can't keep letting it get you down, and you can't keep dragging that dead weight around. =)
    1668 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/29/2013 10:55:51 AM
    I admire you so much. That baby needs you desperately right now and for this moment you have been so important in that little life. I could never do what you're doing. God has a plan for you and Sparkin' is exactly what you do! Thank you! Be blessed.
    1668 days ago
    Sounds as though the baby might need the formula changed. night not be agreeing with baby.. If baby is on formula.. I'm not sure what you mean about new home.
    but in the mean time,good luck !
    1668 days ago
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