Saturday, June 29, 2013
Ugh. I'm not terribly proud of today. We had a carnival at the childcare center where I work and I went WAY overboard on the junk food. And not just at work. When I got home, I figured my day was pretty much shot anyway so I ordered a deep dish pizza for dinner. Now, not only do I feel badly about getting off track, but I feel pretty gross from eating so poorly all day
I haven't really been terribly motivated this week as it is, and today just kind of snuck up on me. I didn't have a plan in mind going into the carnival (HUGE mistake!!) and then, I just kind of gave up on the day as a whole... I'm really afraid of falling back into my old bad habits; I would usually just give up completely at this point. I'm trying to stay positive though. I'm going to plan really carefully for tomorrow and hopefully have a MUCH better day. I think it helps that I've already seen some progress, too. I've lost 8 pounds in the last few weeks and while that's not a lot, it is more than 12% of the total amount of weight I'm trying to lose. That's something to celebrate right? Its definitely too much to walk away from. I'm just going to focus on how much better I've been feeling lately and how good it feels to see progress.
Blah I don't know... I just know that a few months ago, today would have meant the end of any attempt to change my body and my life. Not this time though (at least not yet... one day at a time, right?)