Friday, June 28, 2013
I really did not want to go to Zumba last night. The weather is heating up and I'm in a pain flare again. I went anyway and a newbie called to me across the gym "Where were you yesterday? I missed you!" I went over and told her that I was having a bit of trouble with pain. So - this woman starts to put her hands on me and to pray out loud very loudly "Pain, go away! Go away! Satan - kiss her butt! We want you to leave her alone!" People were looking at me. I didn't know what to do. She finally finished and I just thanked her and told her that I had to go to my spot to be ready for class. She called after me that if I truly believed that I would be healed. After class, she came up (as I thought she might) and asked if I was healed yet. I told her that "Well, no", but I did have much better spirits after having been there. Ai yai yai!
I am a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ. I am also someone who has suffered chronic pain for 25 years. Sure, God could miraculously heal me. And it isn't like I haven't begged Him to. But for whatever reason He has been teaching me and helping me to trust Him through the pain. And I feel like He's been helping me by directing me to the right therapies and research on my condition.
Please don't follow me around asking me every five minutes if I'm healed yet, like one woman did at church. All you will do is to add to my stress and make me avoid you. (I didn't go to Zumba tonight partly because I could not handle a repeat of last night.)
It is unlikely that I will tell you to go jump in the lake. I am more of a "smile and nod" girl esp. if it is about me and not my children. I don't know how to be polite and still tell someone to jump in the lake but if anyone has suggestions, I'm open.