Friday, June 28, 2013
I used to struggle with motivation. I just could not figure out what switch flips in a persons mind that made them want to run, work out, pass up cookies and ice-cream! I asked all my friends what motivated them, but none of their answers seemed to apply to me. You see, I was in denial for so long! I didn't FEEL fat so it must not be that bad. At one point I tried to convince myself that fat could look good on me. We all know lots of people who are overweight but still dress great and are pretty. It didn't work. I was never going to be happy overweight. I caught my reflection or saw a picture someone snapped and it wasn't like I thought "wow I look gross as a fat girl". The fact of the matter was the person in the picture simply WAS NOT ME! That's what did it for me. I was not meant to be overweight. I wasn't the care-free, happy, confident person I knew I was before- this person was someone I no longer recognized. Now I wanted to change, now I HAD to change. Again I asked around for motivation, then came the answer: It's not motivation, It's commitment. That's the only answer I've ever been given that made sense to me, FOR me. So far, I've lost 16.5 pounds. I'm pleased with my progress, but it doesn't seem like enough. I guess nothing will be enough until I look and feel like ME again.