Friday, June 28, 2013
I've just been reading back through my blogs for the past year. What a whirlwind year that was. So many changes, so much stress.
I'm happy to say that much of the stress has been relieved. Of course there is still stress, just different ones now. Not the overpowering type of the past year.
So many changes that it's hard to keep up with them. Don't know that I even want to keep up with them. I'm at home and at peace with most of them. I'm sure there will still be more changes over the next year, but at least now I'm not alone in them and will be going in to them with eyes wide open.
Life is settling back on to an even keel and I'm able to think more about my personal health again. I haven't managed to lose any weight to speak of over the past year. It's been down and up and down, well you get the picture.
I know that I have learned a great many lessons over this past year and they will never be forgotten. I know who my real friends are and I appreciate them more than you could know. Many of them are reading this.
I know what unconditional love is and how much trust means. How hard it is to start over when you've lost it. How hard the work is in regaining it.
It will be a long path, but one I'm willing to work for.
I still don't have a relationship with my children and that still hurts, but I have realized that there is nothing more I can do about it. The ball is in their court. I can say that at least they don't deny me my grandchildren. This I am very grateful for.
Who knew life could be so complicated.