Friday, June 28, 2013
Write a tribute to someone who has changed your life or has had a positive effect on your life?
For me, listing just one will not do, I have a few that I would have to say that without them I would be nowhere and who knows if I would even be able to function. The three I have chosen for my tribute is my husband Chad, my Mother-in-law Teresa and my therapist Krystal. Without these people in my life I would still be lost and unable to move forward from my negative toxic ordeal over the last 3years.
First my husband did not give up on me no matter what. I am sure I was an awful person to live with and very frustrating to encounter every single day while in the toxic environment. He had a hard time understanding what was going on with me, still does at times. He encourages me to continue push forward to keep on the path of healing myself emotionally and physically. He is the one in which I turn to when I am not feeling well or am feeling happy, he is my best friend in all aspects of my life and I am grateful for him every single day.
My MIL is a very special person, and I could not imagine my life without her. She has shown me how a mother should love her children. How to be not only loving but also how to treat my children to show they are always needed and have a mother that can be there for them during troubled times. She loves my children as a grandmother should and cares for not only their well being but for our whole families well being. It is strange to me, and I am still learning unconditional love, and how to be the best daughter (or in this case daughter-in-law since daughter will never happen). I am grateful that she is willing to be patient with me even without any understanding why I am the way I have become over the last few years. I am grateful that my children can still be shown what love is so they won't end up as dysfunctional as I have become. I know I messed up a year ago when we arrived in Texas and caused fear and anger between us and its taking a while to adjust to much of anything. I am grateful she still has the love for me even when I don't deserve it, I am guessing that is part of unconditional love. Loving someone when they really don't expect it to be there.
Next and final, my therapist Krystal. I was afraid to go to therapy in fear I would be completely lost and unable to get back to any normalcy since my last time I went was horrid. I have been seeing her for nine months now, and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have come far and continue to move forward in my life to a good person. She has been the most understanding person and still pushes me to face things that have been buried a long time. I still have to take things as they come and one day at a time. I get anxious around big crowds but I am doing much better dealing with it to a point. I still do prefer to stay at home more than going out, but I do go out a lot more than I used to. I actually feel like leaving the house more often and go to a variety of places to include going out to dinner or just out window shopping without fear. As I face the facts of my life and cross each one off my anger is less and less. My patience has returned some and don't get too overwhelmed as fast as I did a year ago. Therapy has been a Godsend to helping me on my road to recovery of anxiety and depression. More importantly the person behind the therapy sessions, the therapist, the one who even though it's her job makes it feel like she cares about who you are and is there to make your life better. I am grateful that she was sent to me to be my therapist for she has actually made me believe I can and will get better and have the life I have dreamed of.
As you can see remove even one of these people and there would be a great hole in my life. Each one plays an important part in my life, getting me to my full potential of who I could be. I am grateful for what each individual has done for me and will continue to use them as my main support in my life, they make me whole.