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I am BACK!!!

Friday, June 28, 2013

I am a little upset... I just had written out a long blog post and my page closed before I could post it! It went something like this:

A lot of life changes have taken place over the last month! I moved to a new city. I started two new jobs. I am looking for a 3rd and I have applied to go back to school in the fall. My weeks have been busy and hectic. The place I moved to has no internet access and I didn't quite realize how important journaling my food and staying plugged in with my spark groups and spark community. It has proven to make a world of a difference.

Over the past month I have "Fallen off the band wagon" for lack of better terms. I stopped tracking my food and the portions because I thought I had a good grasp on it. I worked out only for a few days because I stopped due to my schedule and small injuries or sicknesses. I finally get why people have told me "sickness happens and so do injuries- heal but keep going when you can!" I soon was sneaking sweets and indulging in chips. Not that these things are bad but the quantity was uncalled for. I was not plugged in to a support system.

My motivation and conviction for losing the weight and reaching my goal has renewed itself. I have not only regained a desire but the confidence that I can indeed do this! I can lose the weight! I can reach my goal! I can get healthy! And it doesn't have to be by tomorrow. Or by December. I WILL reach my goal weight of 135lbs if it takes me 10 months or if it takes me 2 years. I just need to keep going! I need the encouragement and support of my friends at home and especially from you guys! But I need the encouragement of myself! I have noticed that my Self-Talk has changed over the course of my journey! I give myself pep talks! I remind myself that I am WORTH the fight and the work of reaching my goal weight! I am WORTH the effort of retraining myself the foods to eat! I am WORTH the effort of working out and reaching a healthy size! I AM WORTH IT and no one else is going to do it for me! I genuinely say these things out loud to myself... I try to make sure I am alone if I can help it... no need to look like a loon!

Something I heave learned from the Direct Marketing Company I work with (and love) is that if your "WHY" isn't enough to make you cry... find a new reason.
So in case I have never clarified my reasons for losing 127lbs here they are (in no specific order!)
-To love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul, mind and STRENGTH!
-To be able to live out my calling with a long healthy and fit life!
-To prevent diabetes, cancer and heart disease that my family is predisposed to developing.
-To keep up with my friends who tend to hold back on a lot of physical activity so as to not leave me behind (Sweet of them but NO MORE).
-To have healthy pregnancies when the time comes!
-To enjoy the outdoors!
-To raise my kids in an active and healthy household. This is something I never had as a child. I had no idea what it was like to not eat 10 cookies and brownie for dinner and to exercise. It wasn't encouraged.
-To live my life and live it to the fullest!
-To not be ashamed of Physical Activity
-To be proud of myself for finally doing something for me!
-To prove to myself that I. Am. Worth. It.


I have learned in my journey so far that success looks like this:


and that




If the desire to lose the weight is genuine and truly for YOU then it was stay... even if you stop for a month or two. The motivation WILL come back and it WILL keep you going!

So, I am going to make it a point to go somewhere with internet everyday and keep a physical food log to have on me so I know how many calories and what my portions are! I have to keep going!!

It's the only option!
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ADAPTINGANNIE 7/25/2013 8:47AM

    So glad to see that you will be posting again.....(I hope). Find your words very inspiring. Keep strong in your convictions and actions. You will, with God's help, reach your goals.
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TXPATRIOT 7/10/2013 10:03PM

    Missing you greatly! I hope you are doing well!

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MONKEYSTAR28 6/30/2013 8:03AM

    You have got this. I think that the most valuable thing that I have learned on my (51 pounds lost to date) journey is how to recover and react quicker when I too fall off the wagon. We are not perfect, we will have set backs, but it is how quickly we can recognize the set-backs and get back on track. Having a supportive community online and with friends and family is key, too. We are all here cheering you on! You can and WILL do this! Be kind with yourself and yes, YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! emoticon emoticon

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STRONGCOURAGE 6/29/2013 8:11PM

    Hey girl! So glad to read your blog! You sure have had alot of major changes! I'm so glad that you're deeming your health and YOU to be sooo worth it! Because it is TRUE! Taking care of our bodies is both loving ourselves and loving God! Two incredible gifts! Cheering for you and looking forward to reading your blogs, and encouraging you onwards. The journey isn't easy. But we ARE worth it. We ARE valuable. WE ARE WORTH THE FIGHT!!!!! You go girl!!!! :))))

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CATHEMARIE 6/28/2013 4:22PM

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I can relate to that picture of Success!!

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JOHGLO2011 6/28/2013 3:21PM

    Wow - what a time you have had in the last few weeks. Many changes, but you are handling it well with your new resolution and determination to live a healthy lifestyle. Best wishes to you!

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